One Winged Angel

2009-05-01T05:58:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Perceptions forms "me" "you" "that"
Words
Labels
That inevitably draws lines
When thoughts arises
Perception arises
When perception arises
Division arises
We must understand
There is no "self"
As "self" is just what everyone and everything forms you to be
In that case
Who are you? (:

[` Lincoln]

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heyyyyy everyone. damn long never come and blog. i know i know. but ns is really sucking up a lot of my time la. really have not much time to blog. and everytime wanna blog, a series of shit happens in a single shot. so i get lazy to blog about so many things all over again. :D vicious cycle, but breaking it today~ :P

well, i'm actually on my presumably, last week of my bmt recourse! AHAHAH. fast right. pes A/B recourse only lasts 6 weeks. but a bit sad la, i seriously hope it goes on longer. maybe for a week or two more? make it 8 weeks la. im getting so used to the life in bmt. yea, need to wake up early, kena knock it down. but life is so much simpler. and a lot of admin time. :D!! seriously damn relaxed. it's like i can bathe around 6 to 7 times a day now. wth right? (:

well highlights in bmt, as predicted, so much fitter and stronger, feels like i can take ippt without any kick anymore. LOL. well took a diagnostic ippt, which i jus screw up my 2.4 for a lower cat status. :D!!! comparatively fitter la. situps- 41, pull ups- 9 (cause 3sg james was being a dick and didnt wanna count my 13:D), shuttle run- 9.3s, sbj - 230 (oni station i louya-er), 2.4km, HAHAHAHAHA. 13.49, leisure jog.

oh yes, i would like to mention, i have the best section thus far. in bmt. ahahaha. even better than the previous one back in Jaguar. I guess cause everyone is in recourse, they know everything, what to expect, how to play wid the rules, know when to wayang and when to just chill, know how to fight for our rights. so yup, expertly we tread on(:. ahahaha. platoon 4 to platoon 2 section 4!!! onward we goo!!

had many enjoyable days in bmt la. seriously love it. field camp la, soc, ippt, agr, 5bx, swimming sessions, btp, imt, hand grenade. wah seriously, did i miss out so much in my previous bmt. i felt i didnt even do a single shit. i have a new wife, A078, SAR21. ahahaha. sorry to LTC19:(. i got posted out. so new wife. :D. field camp is like the ultimate highlight of bmt pls. reported sick twice. HAHAHAHAHA. cause my skin on my back started to turn v scaly and peel off and flake off.

but i believe i have done all i could and put in a lot of effort in this bmt la. best recruit luh! HAHAHA. marksman summore. aiseh rite? :P. route march was damn xiong la. knn. how ppl do 72km route march? my frens all almost died on the 8km one to my field camp site. wtf rite. :D. there is like mr hyperventilation who hyperventilates every single strenuous exercise. seriously give him a fucking down pes. :D and mr huang br, pls.

i donno if we 7 life times b4 is husband n wife or wad. HAHAHAHAHA. but dont play me out leh. kanineh. 1.30am, i slping so soundly, like a baby in my bashar on the second night. *lincoln slps well ^^*, suddenly sumone starts to have v rapid breathing. *lincoln awakes and feels for huang br, NO ONE*, startled, removed my rifle from my belt and got up immediately. figure on my bashar opening. i tot sumone jus collapsed. KNN. friggging hyperventilating. i quickly shouted, "SOLDIER, BREATHE. LISTEN TO ME, CONTROL YOUR BREATHING. SLOW BREATHE SLOW BREATH!!!!" figure does not comply with instructions, breathing got faster. =.=

in the end, it was huang br, cause he got so agitated he cannot slp. he was going into a fit. WTF LA. AHAHAHA. FREN SO LONG BUT DONT SABO LEH. got turn out that day pls. 4am. SIGH. broke our bashar. den went to new campsite. Go dig frigging shell scrape LA. na beh. i got chronic back pain. so u telling me to dig. sigh. i dug it anyway. after reporting sick:P. completed it. but didnt slp inside it. took turns wid nakamura and lai heng. to 1/3 alert.

the oil palm plantation is frigging haunted. we all saw a lot of shit inside. will explain further if asked:P. not wanting to post it here. :D trying to limit it. a lot of fire movement training. urban ops. den our tests. den covered our shellscrape. den go for BIC. BIC is damn ultra fun pls. and b4 i entered the BIC grounds, 3sg pang gave me the best news in my life. "Lim jian rong. who is lim jian rong!"

"me ar sg, wads up?" "oh, u got interview on monday" "huh really, wad subj?" "i help u check, wad are ur choices?" "med, dentistry and pharmacy", "i tink it's med, i help u check". IT WAS MY MEDICINE INTERVIEW. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. ((:!!!!!! yay!!! long awaited piece of shit. :D i got it. den it was the best topping for the last day of my field camp. (:

an essay, a psychometric test and 2 interviews determined if i were to pursue the career of my passion or not. damn exciting. lost a lot of weight from field camp. so fit v smartly in all my formal wear. bought a white formal shirt wid a grey tie and a pierre cardin belt. ((:!! nicenice. anyway i think i did fine for my interviews la, just depends if they all wan to accept me or not. sighs. :D. hoping for the best though.

den did my hand grenade test. WAH DAMN EXCITING. AHAHAHAHAHA. throwing a real life hand grenade is damn IMBA la!!! :D. the ground shakes and ball bearings all fly!!! LOL. (: damn fun la. nothing to say.

LIFE IS GREAT. (:. if i get into med, LIFE IS EVEN GREATER. :D!!

hoping for the best!!(:
L

2009-02-27T20:48:00.000-08:00

The wind was on the withered hearth
but in the forest stirred no leaf;
there shadows lay by night and day,
and dark things silent crept beneath.

The wind came down from mountains cold,
and like a tide it roared and rolled;
the branches groaned, the forest moaned,
and leaves were laid upon the mould.

The wind went on from west to east;
all movement in the forest ceased,
but shrill and harsh across the marsh
its whistling voices were released.

The grasses hissed, their tassels bent,
the reeds were rattling-on it went
o'er shaken pool under heavens cool
where racing clouds were torn and rent.

It passed the lonely mountain bare
and swept above the dragon's lair:
there black boulders stark
and flying smoke was in the air.

It left the world and took its flight
over the wide seas of the night.
The moon set sail upon the gale
and stars were fanned to leaping light.

-The hobbit, J R R Tolkien

[` Lincoln]
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EHHEYS everyones! (:

Back to blog again. however this time again I'm setting foot on a different path of my life. I'm posted out from LTC!! LOL. blessing or not, i've definitely yet to see and experience. However, it would be great since I'm staying out for the next 2 weeks or so. I better make my time worthwhile by settling my medicine stuff by this weekend!! 30 more days back to TEKONG. omg. one year has passed man. lols. i just felt i'm just out of jc.

Just when I was getting used to being overworked (paradoxical) and had a tack in handling our wonderful dx6 n company's shortest man. if you get my drift. the wonderful morning run ended abruptly with me being posted back to s1 branch. lols. surprised man. however i already expected it given the trouble I have always given to my coy. I did my work, I treaded on thin lines but I never had gotten any punishment. thats the way Lincoln does things in school and also in army now:D.
i'm quite getting used to army nowadays though the days are long.

leaving ltc, it is a bittersweet feeling. I learnt a lot about the army from just this camp alone. the peers were awesome, some of my superiors are really nice and the rest are the worst lot i EVER met. i began to ponder about what they said about entering ns and wad i would see when i was still in sec sch or jc. "you will meet people from all walks of life" and "any type of people in the world, you will all see it in the army". indeed. i have met the nicest people, the ball carriers(HAHA), the brave heroes (but heroes always die first), the many two headed snakes (too many to mention), the loyal friends who would stick by you, the agitated, the brilliant yet bitchy, the dull but hardworking, the patient, the mad, the comics.. every type of person you can ever find.

I'm not proud that I have not been practicing the dharma very well in camp. It is seriously hard to practice it in the place of extremities especially in this frigging pressure cooker environment of mine. But every single day I feel i still have the intention and the effort (no matter how in vain) to try and steer myself back on track.

Leaving ltc, i will definitely miss my peers man. All those basketball sessions, gym sessions, night jogs, car washing days, car polishing days, vip details, duty days=.=, admin dispatch days, admin work days. man! i've come so far in my ns life!! but it's only mid way, i wonder wad awaits me ahead. (hopefully a disruption to go nus med) LOLL. ahaha. it will be bmt next, it's like a rebirth man. one year kinda anniversary!! :D Never will i forget my days in ltc no matter how sucky the superiors are. and i realised i was quite fortunate to be in ltc. lols. for the driving part and peers part. hopefully the next camp would be even better.

least i'm not alone. one thing i do regret is not knowing everyone even more. but everyone has to leave one day. every cloud would disperse one day. so yup! the senior batch would ord soon, and thus! it's better to part early than late. lols. i do wish all the people i know, the best! (: man one day we should have a major chalet and hang out guys. it was a long 10 months and I DID IT. (: i survived hell.
without any extras. WHOO HOO. AHAHA. (:

currently in camp clearing my last duty wid staff khai. awesome person, cliqued after a night drive(: and a near death experience wid him when travelling along CNB. AHAHAHA. i will never forget that adrenaline!!!!! (: the day i drifted on sembawang camp's multistorey carpark and all. woots. jashua, calvin n kiat beng!! meet up soon too man.

ending duty tml=.= sucks. oh wells! i will miss ltc but not the certain few superiors. (: new life ahead. prolly it is already planned out for my disruption. all or nothing now. may i be blessed with those benefactors to come my way!!!!!

L

2009-02-22T01:51:00.000-08:00

[` Lincoln]
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And now,
That it has begun
It cannot turn back
I will never meet you
I won't hesitate at all
When you call

I'll always remember
Part of you so tender
I will be the one to always catch you
Whenever you fall.

-Mariah Carey & Brain McKnight

[` Lincoln]
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Heys everyones! :D back to blog. especially tired this frigging week. been overworked like a piece of shit. So yups, today I had to sanity to type so I shall!! (: The week started off uneventful. But quickly progressed since wednesday! You'know though 350+ days seem short la. But ar. if every day was as eventful as last wk's, i think it is super tiring and detrimental to my brain!!!

Wednesday I did especially well as i went for my ippt. Best ippt i ever did in my life. Is it because of army!?!?!? i dont know, or im jus getting fitter thru age. oh wells. 12 pull ups, 234 sbj, 40 sit ups, 10 for shuttle run, 11.20 for 2.4km. way better than any ippt i ever did man. finished the 2.4km like crap though. coughed like a dog. drink water like few litres pls. :D but SILVER IT IS! 100 DOLLARS RICHER. WOOTS. aiming for a gold after my BMT though(:
30th march to 22th may. bmt recourse!! hope it will be smooth!!(: and pls let me get to nus med this yr!!!:(

den thurs was doing duty. but feeling great. however the day's happiness died when my stupid dx6 asked me to join his roving team till sat morn 3am. DUE TO the fact i was outside the office for just a short while. helping my friend and talking to him oni. sighs. immature as usual. and i called my csm to try reason out. as usual. used as a sacrifice and pawn. sighs. however, i dont give a shit anymore. let me ord or disrupt peacefully and i'll be happy enough.

fri as i predicted, i went home . not on saturday. he jus wanted me to wait, den say no nid go, den show he v welfare. den csm confirmed tt plan by commings to the whole singapore how gd ltc regulars are. sigh. bullshit. understand? ns is a wayang. ahahah.

oh well, sat was spent nicely. taught differentiation. loved tt topic. cause i owned evryone in it back in sec sch. ahahahah!! =X den i was reminded how wonderful it was like to go back to school to study again. i seriously miss studying. it is the homework la, being late for sch la, everythign that makes things so memorable. not forgetting the love hate relationships and friends who hang around that makes sch as fun as it is. sighs!! i miss nyjc loads pls.:(

went out wid vanessa, long time no see man tuition budddy. oh yes, i miss tuition too. ahahaha:D went for dinner, watched movies den walked her home b4 collapsing on my bed. sighs. :D jus so tired.

sunday is quiet and peaceful. sighs!! but going back to camp. anyway bon voyage to zachary. take care bro. hope you enjoy your civilian life!! (: u're freeeee!!!! will miss seeing you in camp though. :D cheers.

L

2009-02-14T18:49:00.000-08:00

Tuesdays with Morrie.

Everyday, Have a little bird on your shoulder that asks,"

Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person who I want to be?Is today the day I die?"

Only when one accepts that death is certain, then would one decide to live life differently.

[` Lincoln]
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Heys everyones! back to blog again. such an eventful week. i seriously do not know where to begin with! Prolly I shall start with a big regret about what I have typed on the previous blog entry. I think I was being too caught up wid my pent up emotions, but I have looked past those minor obscurations and believe it has brought me to higher realisations(: sadhu sadhu sadhu. If everyday I come closer to death,let everyday be a step closer towards perfecting my own mind.

I just finished my first VIP detail!! Whoots. it was not as exciting as I initially thought it would be, probably due to the fact that I was doing it mostly alone and without any prior knowledge of the roads in Singapore. Seriously, I get lost even in orchard rd, how LOUSY could one be on roads. especially when cars costs a bomb, especially in the saf. UR pocket and also UR life goes down the drain once u crash a car. expensive and u will get charged. na beh, where got worth it. stress level damn high.

My virgin vip detail was with the French. 2 COs of 2 warships just docked on the berths of Changi Naval Base. One thing I love about changi naval base is the wonderful scenery and it is sumthing worth stopping to enjoy when u're not in the army (cause you can't obstruct traffic with an MID plate) :D. I loved the mornings I had to drive from ltc to CNB. awesomely beautiful drive after exiting ECP(Changi).

My detail is a very high stressed one due to the simple fact, I HAD NO RECEE, contributing factor=> NO programme sheet, cause=> THEY DONNO WHERE THEY WANNA GO. LOLL. wth. ahahha. so unprepared, unfamiliar, and with 5 mins to prepare, i was thrown to the roads of singapore. that was the second day though. the first day i was on standby for 14 hours. WTH.

The first task they assigned to me, "morning! i need to findd.. ziss tailor.. south bridge road.. 230 south bridge road." LOL. KNN. we normally find big buildings like taka, plaza sing all that. HOW COME U ASK ME FIND A SHOP!?!?! AHAHAHAH. i couldn't help but to smile bigbig.

exiting rochor, supposed to go left to north bridge road, but missed it, went down victoria st, and HOR LAN LUH!!! AHAHAHAHA. lost like sum stupid pig. struggling with the map. na beh damn hard noe. and i was driving very slowly cause I wanted the vips to have a very comfortable ride. but it was defeated by the effort of trying to read a poorly informed map and driving in the middle lane. :D. but dropped them off @ south bridge road, erksine rd, and parked @ the carpark where i went for lunch, bought parking coupons though. :D

i didn't know the buddha tooth relic temple was behind. so i paid it a visit. circumbulating to the grand vajra throne and the thousands of devas and bodhisattvas, i felt such luck to stumble on the temple even without planning! ahahah. i prayed for a safe vip detail, well, it ended okay and well, so no complains(: and yes, the no 3 uniform looks like a security guard's and i got approached by many people asking for directions. ARGH. :D

after the tailor, they wanted to visit boat quay for lunch. planned the route and went according to plan. go small roads, i thought. so i ventured behind scarlett hotel and thru club st, and planning to go straight past a main road to another small rd, china st. AND GUESS WADDDDDDD. RENOVATION WORKS. TA MA DE. AHAHAHAHAHAHA. i was so pissed with myself. i hor lan-ded again. tried to turn, ONE WAY ROAD. AHAHAHAHAHAH. KNN. donno wad luck i got man. so hor lan until managed to reach. den i go walkwalk @ the central and all.

den after tt i horlanded all the way to plaza sing, sent one vip to orchard and flew back to cnb. the vip told me, "zis ship, reach by 5. evening going to embassy, have car to bring me. you can go home if you can." HAPPY ONI. I WANNA GO HOME. BUT. the fucking embassy cars never came. and wonderfully the two idiots, PICKED MY CAR AGAIN TO DRIVE THEM TO THE EMBASSY. heng got dennis neo to guide me. awesome chaffeur!!(: nice guy. he led the way and followed all the way till bukit timah rd. den i overtook him due to traffic restrictions and i thought, "DIE. IM IN FRONT NOW"

i remembered his briefing on just going straight, vaguely remembered about something called newton circle. so i turned into newton circle. HONG GAN LUH! AHAHAHAHA. wrong way. should go past newton circle. tmd. i hor lan one round in the round about den go back to bukit timah rd. heng(:. den managed to get into Cluny park rd!!! HAHAHA. (: yays. den thought the night was over. den dennis told me had to bring them to china club. WHERE IS A CLUB U CANNOT FIND A CLUB IN THE FUCKING STREET DIRECTORY. AHAHAHAHAH. owned. but he brought me for recee, i lost my street directory:( but i gained invaluable knowledge.(:

i successfully brought them to china club along anson rd. den they didn't keep their part of the deal. :( they asked me to wait for them. tmd. i was supposed to go back to my camp. so i waited. they promised an hour. i waited for more than an hour and a half @ the rd side. from got traffic till no traffic. from 9.30pm to 11.05pm. i sped my frigging way back to CNB. dropped them off. den flew back to ltc. I NEEDED MY SLP. i had to still top up my vehicle. sighs.

den next day. they told me beforehand, "tml china town and mandai zoo". when they got into my car, they laughed and smiled sheepishly, "we changed plans." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH KNNB CCB PCB. LOLLLLLLLLL. i couldn't help it. i shook my head and LAUGH. :D but they were nice to plan my route for me. telling me where to take and all. hor lan a bit oni. but expat alr. got prior knowledge from the night b4. :D and the vips were very nice to me.

took them to sim lim (simple, straight rd oni after rochor) den to funan digilife (bua kerb:() den to takashimaya. den they said, "uncomfortable with you working on weekend. your job ends today. go home after this. HAPPY ONI. AHAHAHAHA. but go back camp very sian. i had to do the fucking RO. after my detail i was dead tired. dx6 still picked on me. tmd chao chee bye. but i was too tired to argue. went up bunk to take my stuff, den i flew back home via cab.

saturday was a lazy day. so tired. had breakkie with family den went imh for ward visits. discussion about proj M. den made a new clique of friends!! (: benedict, zixin, eugene, xinjia, aricia and me! :D i tink we should give clique name soons man. tmd. :D. damn ALIKE know! i never had such experience in my life. one group of like minded people, mixing a concoction of friendship based on trust, on beliefs, based on our similarities. I LOVE MY NEW CLIQUE(: it was a v day well spent as clique hung out @ vivo and enjoyed dinner, chatting, nat geo and all. wonderful. (: perfect wkend.

359 days left to ORD. :D

L

2009-02-01T18:39:00.000-08:00

[` Lincoln]

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Life certainly is like a shard of mirror

Whatever you looks you throw out

Reaps back the same reflection onto you

And my ns life is a frigging piece of booger STUCK ON TT MIRROR

ITS THERE EVEN IF IM NOT IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR!!!!!

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Heys everyones! back after such a long time of not blogging. Have been procrastinating loads on my blogging. anyway in just 7 more days. it's just 1 yr left in my stupid ns life. I am going to f off totally. i do see some of the ord personnels coming back to visit my superiors. it's the 88 batch. its okay if u come back once or twice. but it's overdoing it if u come back every single wk and por the superiors. i doubt i will ever be a CFC if i continue my service in LTC. just due to the main reason, i cannot suck up to superiors who don't deserve an ounce of it. I show my respect to everyone equally and only bother to keep up with ppl who deserve it.

i don't understand why people could talk with fondness about serving ns when they're inside it. YES. I KNOW we LEARN a lot from it. i dont deny i have learnt to be more tolerant, responsible and disciplined. BUT. there are more setbacks than benefits. i know every system in the world is flawed. but they are overdoing the flaws. Superiors don't deserve respect. they work for over 20+ yrs in the force and they firstly are not good in their work. (if not why is there such thing as Personal Assistant) =.=, they still are stuck in the past (when police were still wearing shorts). people rule everything by authority and a higher rank is the absolute fact u are right. ridiculous.

this is a major shooting session on my blog against the regulars.

firstly, please be clear, nsfs DO NOT -i repeat- DO NOT owe you people ANYTHING. Don't expect us to do EVERYTHING for you, subjected to unrelenting criticisms on how we do YOUR work. If it's YOUR work and YOU got a PROBLEM wid how WE do YOUR work. PLS. DO IT YOURSELF. (as you people are supposed to, tax payers pay u guys to do those work).

secondly, dont make it sound like we are doing things in ns cause we WANT to. I make it clear. WE DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING. Thats the reason why we dont give a shit wad we're doing in ns and why we are called NSFS and not REGULARS. don't come give me the bullshit story of "how come you never do this properly, how come never do that properly. next time go out how to work!"

thirdly, i got insulted for having a genuine medical problem that allowed me to be excused uniform for a month. i got insulted for not knowing how to do sum excel documents, for that i must know it once i become a doctor. WTH. ARE YOU A DOCTOR? telling me about what i am supposed to know as a doctor. pls. backstabbed by superiors even though i gritted my teeth and clenched my fists to stop me from saying anything disrespectful. and my csm could tell us "anything be a man and settle it in front of me. i will take it. dont say anything behind my back" INDEED, SO U REGULARS, if you got a PROBLEM. say it in my FACE. i dare you. you will be launched in a verbal assault battle that might lead you to be tongue tied and resorting to using rank to "win" tt argument. i predict.

argh! IM SO FED UP WITH NS. now i wonder if combat side would be more tolerable. it's only physical torment. in service side. it's MENTAL torment. it's worst. i got called when im on leave to do stuff. wad ridiculous notion is that. asked to find things when im not in the office. im sure that very clever of that regular. im sure i can find everything in the office. and please stop comparing the present batch wid the past batches. we don't suck up, we don't treat u guys to food, to praises, to anything. we're REALITY, not your regular PL or CS. too bad. we're here to bring the market back DOWN.

ns is seriously affecting my mental state of equanimity. im seriously giving my all in trying not to be angry and pissed. but the regulars are like the frigging Mara. LOLLLL. im still not giving up. im giving my all in training my mind. hopefully this chaotic state of mind will subside. MDC TONIGHT. YES. AT LONG LAST. PLS.

2008-12-29T22:55:00.000-08:00

[` Lincoln]

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Wanting to make things work out right this time.

Not waiting for things to just happen.

[` Lincoln]

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Hey everyones!! (: how have u guys been? been a long time since i blogged. but a very belated xmas to you!! ahahaha. and soon a be early happy new year. :D!! 2008 is coming to a closure but 2009 is coming to a beginning. ahahaha. and yes my mc has ended. =.= sian. and true to it my first day back @ camp, everything almost went wrong but i tink this time my attitude in handling it has improved drastically. i guess im not tt small boy i used to be anymore. willing to prove my point more aggressively and let things be done.

well my past wks and all have been productive and also time for me to catch up on my breath and also to gain weight=.= LOL. all positive except the gain weight part. oh well. soon getting back on my feet for my losing tt bulk i gained=.= prolly starting nxt mon onwards. during bunk time. yes!! roar!! bball!!! ahahaha(:

i also did an attachment with med onco with the legendary dr tan ming han.

ahahaha(:

he's a v nice person. a lill eccentric. however, which genius isn't. (:

yups, it opened my eyes to another door of medicine. cancer is not sumthing that is very far from our life. it presents as a very real threat and we should keep our health in check to avoid such things from happening. got chances to interact with the patients, all of whom are quite complying and answer our questions we presented(: also attended the tumour board discussions with the pathology, urology and onco dept. boring but interesting @ the same time.

went out with siying for a prata cum wahjong session! ahahaha. jankin joined us in the wahjong. went nic house for NBA. and one of the best is actually the digging the garden session @ IMH. worked my ass off pls. to dig the frigging garden. ahahaha. but it was worth the sweat pls. gd workout after a long while. and at last i got the feeling of digging the shellscrape. HAHAHAHA. after so long huh! (:

back in camp first day. duty. sian alr. ahahah. den do duty. kena like fuck. one major event tt happened was dinner time. i went to collect rations as per normal. den came back. the guard house called. say mus collect ration for them. i was like wtf? where got such thing. lols. den one guy on duty wid the DO, came down. den say where was his vegetarian food. WTF? no superior told me to collect any vegetarian shit. oh well.

so since i had to make a second trip for night snack 2, i went back n asked.

the uncle say no more vegetarian lehh. so i asked for cup noodles for tt vege guy. upon reaching camp i told him no vege food, so i passed him the cup noodles and 1 packet of ration for his DO.

and guess wad. 8 plus. he came down n wanted to tok to me. i was like huh? LOL den he was like, hey u took the noodles is prawn noodles leh. den i ate den i vomitted it out when i found out got prawns. the prawns v small only so i didn't see.

so initially me tot the cup noodles was non vege, i donno if cup noodles are vege or not, but since he said tt i was super duper sorry and apologized repeatedly tinking the cup noodles were non vege. i said the uncle from the canteen jus handed it to me n without tinking i let him eat it. den he asked me to see the DO cause the DO wanted to find out why i "sabo" this vege boy.

so into the first big shit. i went to see the DO. it is quite an untold truth but i shall tell it now that. no offence, but most warrant officers tend to be a little tad too long in the service that they assume they noe everything. they assume they can noe wadever their subordinates are going to say and loves to cut them off halfway during their explaination, further more, cutting them halfway would not allow the full story to be presented hence resulting in a lot of misunderstandings.

however ytd though cut off many times, i managed to put my point across v concisely and found out. that . vege boy. ate. the.fcuking.white.ration.box. WHAT THE HELL LA. AND HERE I WAS FEELING SO SORRY CAUSE I TOT THE CUP NOODLES SABOED HIM. LOLLLLLL. WHY DID U EAT THE WHITE RATION BOX WHENNNNNNNNNN I ALRRRRR SAYY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO VEGE FOOD AND GAVE U CUP NOODLES INSTEAD? WHY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. omg. hilarious. after explaination and clearing the misunderstanding. i suspected his superior, a MSG. didnt help him indent the vege meal. however this could oni be confirmed

during breakfast the nxt day.

the nxt day, a beautiful morning disrupted by an unholy call. i can wake up. please do not disturb my wonderful slp. i wake up earlier than any frigging person in camp who doesnt have detail and keep my head above the pillow and brush my teeth. so pls, my wonderful partner in duty today. dont wake me up unnecessarily. cause i lacked of slp. due to the fact i have to close the 9 books for you. which was your duty and u were using the internet the whole time. didn't bother to help me out in any of my task. but i had to help u with most of yours. might as well. jus give me. both badges. and u go home. =.= grant me an off and i will gladly do tt.

oh yes. i asked the uncle if there was anything vege for breakkie. and he said NO. NO ORDERS. yes wonderful. the sweet smell of victory. HAHAHA. den i requested for bread, VEGE butter and sugar for my dear vege boy. den brought it up to him. happily proclaimed his MSG didnt indent for him and went down happily after drawing my key. tt was b4 the unholy sight of a white honda shitvic opps i mean civic came. and yes the driver made things v hard for me today just because his fish tank, *whose pump is spoilt by him*, was dirty (not my duty scope), the hose was not reeled up properly (this is my fault, however, it was neatly out of place) and he said "i tink ur mc too long forget about ltc alr rite. might as well ask csm post u to a better place" OMG. HE DID SAY TT! i could go mtc anytime and lead a much better life.

den after making things hard for me. i went for leave. didnt bother to look @ him @ all. packed my things. bathed. and WENT HOME. dad brought me home. (: thanks dad. and here i am resting my ass @ last. den suddenly vege boy called again for my name.i bet he's going to complain and use my name as evidence or a shield. sigh. i hope my senses are as gd as now to keep my head. (:

2008-12-14T04:25:00.001-08:00

waiting for the OT

me and sis waiting @ AnE TTSH

hydrating!

not piles. but my sandals was placed nxt to me and all the blood got onto my jeans

removing the bandage

attempt to stop the bleeding

dramatic shot: blood in slippers and beside it

rebecca, jane and me during our stint.

practicing some xmas carols!

me and jane discussing the music

demoing to jane

rehearsing

rehearsing in the air con room:D

it's amazing lok heng didnt fly up wid tt many helium balloons

balloon filled ceilings!

volunteers day!

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Indescribable feeling.

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hey everyones. back to blog again. ytd was such an eventful DAY! omfg mannn! ahahah(: okay basically woke up early and dad sent me to IMH for my volunteer performance and also to attend their volunteers' day celebration. so after having breakfast wid my parents, i climbed up the stairs from IMH for the firsttime to their auditorium. it was well decorated wid balloons as depicted above. :D. such effort!!

den we watched sum performances and did a laughter therapy. v lame but yea la. enjoyed it. ahahaha. den did watch some other performance wid a classical trio. nice. but a bit boring la the piece they played. :D. they should've played something more technical and i would be like ENCORE!!! (:! ahahah. but they were great! so were the sing alongs. made some new friends here and there. really great. we went to then grab the balloons to bring to the children's ward. :D. den took some pictures here n dere. would be asking for them soon to upload.

den my toe started to bleed. my slipper was drenched in blood. so i was brought to IMH's a n e first. den they did my dresing for me. den i went down to the children's ward to practice. den helped out a bit here n dere. rehearsed. den volunteered to be the human tic tac toe's game ic. wah. damn fun pls. :D! ahahah. had fun wid jane, rebecca, eugene, shuhan, leer, lokheng, apple, shan and many others. wah biang rocks pls! b4 my performance, my toe was bleeding again. s had a change of my dressing b4 going for my performance.

well performance went great! ahha(: den hosted the game wid rebecca n jane. it was really nice to see everyone bonding without any distance or stigma. lols. after the whole thing ended. my slipper felt wet again. i was like. fuck no. all blood again. tmd. den went to the room. as depicted above. :D. den the blood cannot be stopped. so the nurses panicked. tied a pressure bandage. under supervision of dr Ong. (: thank you. den my sis and jane rushed me to ttsh. AnE.

a big thank you to everyone who cared and bothered smsing me! ahahah.(: and especially big one to the nurses @ IMH, dr ong, achievers, jane, rebecca(my own dr sister), shu han, eugene, leer and others ahahaha.(: u guys rock! yes lucky for me, one of the MDC seniors was @ ttsh ane. so i requested for him luh! though the wait was damn long, and first time in my life i was on a wheelchair. but it was worth the wait. i was allowed to watch the whole operation procedure. how stitches were done and all. wah simply breathtaking and exhilarating, :D!!

my toe was patched up wid 3 other stitches. fug. :(. but i was in a v gd mood. :D. the whole day went perfect! though ending in a piece of shit way. :D! anyways my csm demands me to go back to endorse my mc tml. dangs. :(. but hope it would be a short wait for the MO. sigh. if not it would be such a stupid waste of my day!!! hopefully by tml i would've gotten much beter for tuesday. argh. mdc tml(:

2008-12-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

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Ticket to ride(:

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hey everyones. back to blog again after so long. actually i did want to blog after my frigging operation from alexandra, that (not so frigging after all) granted me a 15 day hospitalization leave!!! (: but i got to say my toe looks terrible now. like some monstrous abomination. but oh well. for my 15 days. thats all man. sigh.:D okay. lets see. i have missed out quite a bit from the outings and all.(eg. picture on top)

oh wells. but i've done my bit for the community amidst the stupid leg. i was outstripped by aunties for a few days. couldn't cross the pesdestrain on time. when i was going to buy my food and all. ARGH. it was super duper irritating. HAHAHA. i am not used to be so slow. but i guess it took on a whole new meaning. i guess for the first time in my life, i was walking so slowly and mindfully and looking everything in clearer perspective and enjoying the simplicity of it.

sat was spent @ IMH. due to the need to change my dressings for the wound, the sister of the wards helped me with the bandage. sho nice(: HAHAHA. v caring sisters, they're lucky. den helped out The Achievers also! Helped out with the xmas deco, attended their meeting and all. amazing. den first time went to the female wards! totally different exp. ahahaha. made a few gd friends along the way too. yay me!(:

sunday, had breakkie wid family as usual, but the weather has been all gloomy and all. rain and rain and rain. but im not complaining. it is really gd for slping. HAHAHAHA =X den went to kelsey's house @ night for the gathering. came back from US and i flipped out on her the last time she came back. which was like 2 yrs ago. LOL. oh well. i guess everyone's all grown up now(: celine came with her choir and they sang so many xmas carols! it really made me tink about my JC times. sigh. those choir practices we used to have! and caroling!!! yes. amazing thing to do. sigh!

played guitar hero, eat, chillax, talk, catch up, watch celine make a fool of herself. HAHAHAHAHA. all part of the entertainment for the evening. den left around 11 plus pls. but felt it was necessary to walk kelsey back. den i took a cab home. the fees werent all that expensive. so it didnt matter(:! ahahah. den monday went to MDC. (:! the rest of the week went back very quickly with me doing housework, changing my bandage and everything. ytd went out wid kelsey again cause she's going off to turkey soon. :D had dinner @ her place too. had a very fun day slanging off singlish n proper english.

den thurs, spent the morning waiting for my dad's worker to fix up sum stuff @ home. den went out for dinner wid my dad and all. (: tml was suppsoed to go for an attachment. but in the end, my toe got the better of it. cause it's hurting. ahahah so im gonna see the doc tml morning. to remove the stitches and everything. sigh. painful i bet. and tml will b the last time im gonna hardcore chiong my fking guitar for the performance on sat. hope everything goes fine. i'm dying to believe everything tt happens now is for the better of something.

I MISS SCHOOL:( lemme ord.

L

2008-11-28T20:53:00.000-08:00

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Guess you don't know how much you have been on my mind.

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hey everyones. wah biang. now den i noe im like super overdue in my blogging. ahahaha always wanted to blog but jus procrastinating. oh well. @ least now im here to blog for the first time in like 20 days. so much have HAPPENED. like my ORD day has lessened by 20 days! HURRAY. ahahahaha :P.

let's see. i've been to ATP!!! yayyy! passed it wid more than 60% though havent been to BTP and noe nuts about my THT. but all i gotta say is that. i love my rifle!!!! the best m16s1 any guy can ever have!!! LTC no. 19!! yayyyy!! ahahahah. accompained me thru shit n we emerged victorious!! i left oni 1 ippt to clear and i'm forever never stepping my foot back onto PULAU TEKONG. BAHAHAHA. (:

ATP was nothing short of breath taking, adrenaline pumping and one word to describe it is AWESOME. (:!! ahahahah. simply cause i never shot a real rifle in my life b4. (only handgun in thailand) den was damn kanchiong. first time doing the IMT, computer simulation. KNN. got scolded and flogged like a common mongrel. HAHHAAHA. *lane 2, can u please shoot properly. dont waste our time. and why are u standing likkdat. i giving you oni one more chance. do not waste our time anymore.* exact words. =X HAHAHAHAHA. damn demoralising pls. scored like shit.

day 2 was better cause firing live rounds. though my heart was pacing like i running sum 20km run or sumthing. HOLD UR BREATH before u shoot, den can shoot properly -they say-. IT IS NOT EASY FOR ME. HAHAHAHA. i was so kanchiong. even if i held my breath, my aimer was still like unfocusing. but canadian bull was done perfectly. 2 holes or 3 holes were like overlapping! YAY. marksman luh!=X.

day 3. it was pouring cats n dogs. couldnt shoot properly for my stupid IAD shoot. i jus cant frigging stand up and suddenly jerk into position. =.= fug. ahahaha. night shoot bobo like drink water. 1/9 for the first round of night shot. reshoot. 7/9. YAY. den last 3 to my 60% and exemption from bmt. I HIT ALL 3. HAHAHAHA. i couldnt stop smiling pls. smiled like sum happy dog. LOLL. den the next day was a stupid CSSCOM thing. pls. dont organise such dumb events. when ppl jus came back home from range @ 1.30AM.

anyway den came a lot of other events like MOBMANNING. stupid shit. den a lot of other lame crap la. racing wid a lotus exige S and also an RX-8. HAHAHAHAHA. life in ns is fun @ times la. but other days are pissy like the ones recently i got picked on by one superior. ONLY 1. every other superior is nice to me. ONLY ONE. why ONLY ONE mus pick on ME alone? ME and only ME? knn. ahahahaha. i will ask him soon sia. pick on me summore and ur ass will get owned. white wussy. everything also so humji. oni like to play rank now. tmd. shant elaborate or he might cry @ home if he reads this.

anyways went out wid MDC for basketball and also Timbre!!! ahahaha but it was fucked cause i had to reach home early, nxt day had my stupid duty. sigh. i wonder why do i always get wkend duties every month. *workwork*. LOL. oh well. timbre was awesome. as of the dark pictuures above! (: den also managed to go MDC on monday!!!! and was forced against my will to wear tt stupid orange hawaii shirt. causeee.. i was wearing sleeveless in a restaurant. WTH. THEY NORMALLY DONT GO RESTAURANTTTTSSSS.. AHAHAHAH why tt day have. sian. :D

ytd had a wonderful day back in a hospital environment. (:!! yays. ahahahha. it was damn fun to see how the MOs are trained to do CPR and all those resus cases. AMAZING. ahahaha(: it further confirmed my path n dream to be a doctor. den evening went out wid yeeshin to billy bombers. HONEY STUNG CHICKEN. OMG. damn nice:( but super sinful. ahahahah. had a wonderful night out! (: oh yes also met up wid mariska and annabella too. sigh. i really miss sch days man.

i had a hell of a duty wid zachary tan. HAHAHAHA. shiok man. KFC. (:!!! beams beams beams. but bad news is im going to get fat:(. cause i have been eating loads but NOT EXERCISING. cause of my dumb excused boots thing. damn it la. frigging let me go for my op and get back to running n swimming. I DONT WAN TO GROW FATT.......... AHAHAHAH. ):

back to camp tml:(. monday hopefully doing my ingrown nail op. DEN I CAN GO FOR MY ATTACHMENT ON THURS. --yayyyyy--

i miss everyone:(

L

2008-11-07T18:52:00.000-08:00

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SUP SOMALLIONS! HAHAHA. hows everyone doings? (: long time since i blogged. as i said. November would be a damn busy n tiring month for me. and it proved true! i have been thrown into remedial training. for fuck i donno. ahahaha. i doubt the dx0 could do even 1/10000 of wad i could do. oh wells. ahahaha. owned as usual. so have been running like a mad dog for the whole wk, every single day. and have duty on thurs which i have slpt like oni 4 or 5 hours cause so many ppl were on detail.

but the week was very eventful and ytd was practically the climax of extremities. i was again, sabo-ed to do. all. the. frigging. sai. gang. in. the. whole. of. ltc. AGAIN. WTH MAN. AHAHAH. ang ku kuey. u suck man. LOL. doesn't mean u humji den u mus always direct it to me cause u noe i everything also "ok la". wah biang. don't push it to far. when u push a dog to a corner, it will fight back bitch. LOL. ahahah. but the day was saved by hady and co. !ahahaha! everyone in LTC -excluding the trying to act our standard superiors- has a very gd sense of humour!! we did many things no ordinary ppl in saf would ever dream of doing! HAHAHAHAHA. sum stuff cannot be said.(: hush

anyways next week will be going for my ATP!! CHIONG AR M 16!! AHAHAHAH. go chiong sua and hopefully get my wonderful marksman badge!!!! wah biang. seriously i wanna get my marksman pls. LOL. den my uniform not so empty. anyhow, i am so bored in camp nowadays cause everything is jus becoming so repetitive it's so predictable nothing is like surprising me anymore. LOL.

anyway a big thanks to everyone who made my days in this terrible month better! HAHAHA. esp to my pals in LTC. u rock!!! HAHAHAHA! we should have a cohesion day soon man. sigh. tml have a VIP detail. go die la. knn. makan my sunday leh:(:(. but i tink i getting off. anyway monday cannot go mdc. cause need to go for the stupid stay in @ sembawang camp. ARGHGHGHGH. kill them arh! knn. LOL. nvm la. soon i can anyhow go mdc. (: when things start to settle.

meanwhile, im going to kick back n enjoy my frigging wkend. peace.

457 days to ORD.

L

2008-10-26T04:38:00.001-07:00

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I love to be loved by you(:

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hey everyones! back to ltc for a wk alr. sigh. ahahah. monotonous life is definitely taking a toll. so is my excuse prolonged walking and all. wth pls. every morning kena safety driving. damn xiong la tmd. wake up so damn early. den rain. sigh. oh well life kinda sucks @ times i guess. but things could oni get worse in november. but things will pick up again i hopes!

anyway had a damn fun time @ deepa raya. though it was like very late @ night and we had to go back the nxt day for staff toh's stupid remedial training. pls kena safety again. tmd. when will it end la. sigh. ahahah. we saboed like zac to get on stage. wth. ahahaha. it was hilarious. he sorta volunteered himself by standing up without any acknowledgment from the MC. HAHAHA. damn cute la. we voted him to be the princess. but he became daisy the cow instead. and got sucked by the princess. HAHAHAHAHAH. ownage pls.

den there were many vibrant dances from the punjus *pity aman wasnt there to watch, sigh*, den the indians *but many ppl were being mean and left*, and the delicate n feminine malay dancers. ahahaha. not a bad display but the celebration was jus set @ the wrong time n wrong day. sigh. :D. oh well. den there were like 3 comedians who were actually guys but dressed up as girls. damn dirty la their jokes. damn i like. HAHAHAHA. damn funny. one of them i tink got a boob job. LOLLL! damn cool. got cleavage sia! den almost kissed staff khai. HAHAHAHA. he was struggling like hell. ibnu got the most kisses blown to him :P

den we were saying like if kiat beng was there he would have been saboed instead of zac. ahahahah! oh well. sigh man. den wei jie sorta confessed he saw sumone's AHEM! HAHAHAHAHA. LOLOLOL. damn farnie pls. anyway the next day's remedial training was damn damn dumb pls. go back for like 2 hours?and go home!?!?!?! WTH LA. tmd. and i failed my route in like less than 5 min. cause i was taking the small roads instead of the expressways. so i failed. WAD A STUPID REASON. if i could take the smaller roads i would be like a more expert driver pls.

toh's reason, "you not expert enough, next time u can den say" WAH biangs. tmd. fuck. LOL. waste my OL. :P. HAHAHAHA. oh well, went home and got suaned by my family for gaining a lot of weight! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. damn it sia. jillian joined in too. so hence i and jankin decided to go for our ultimate weight loss programme. 4 months to fitness!!! RARS. ahahaha (: aim to lose @ least 10 kg. @ LEAST. can go more. i am thinking of using thermogenics. we'll see how. but my basic diet will now comprise of downing loads of fluid. @ least around 3 to 4 litres a day. coupled with fibre filled fruits n vege. the rest will remain the same.

we will see our progress! (:

anyway meiyan's bd is today! my mum's colleague. and connie brought her dog! ahhahaha so cute. (:

4 days of HOLIDAY. (: ORD LUH
L

2008-10-18T20:10:00.000-07:00

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To peace.

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yoyoyo! back to blog again. see more regularly blogging my way thru. anyway cause i gotta bk in today tts why. ARGH. :(. why mus i stay innnnn!!! ahahahah. nvm la. i hope my camp is getting better now. not many politics and my superiors have mellowed. oh well, but tt doesnt stop me from having my fun! HAHAHA. and yes, lincoln has to go get rid of his fats gained during MSET course.

MSET course have officially come to a grand closure on thursday. ahahaha. wednesday they took away our thursday's half day! HAAAHHA. mi gosh. i almost fainted cause had to meet siying for dinner den they screwed my plans up. AGAIN. anyhow, i just went to camp on thurs to do the same few shits. den tot of staying till 6 and playing PSP games: Initial D, DJ max portable 2, Gundam SEED. HAHAHAHAA. cockster sia. but they released us earlY!!!!! YAY!

anyways a very big thanks to my group and other people i knew in MSET, pls keep in touch!! HAHAHA. yes got a new nickname for myself, Nicole. WTH. cause they pronounced my name wrong.=.= ahahaha but a very big thanks to my zai but v loh soh instructor, MR TAN BEE KERRRR. TAN BEE KER TAN BEE KER TAN BEE KER TAN TANNNN. AHAHAHAHAH. our cheer sia.

off i went home and changed b4 meeting sy @ yio chu kang mrt. there we decided to go buangkok green to makan cause there (according to sy) have a lot of food eateries! HAHAHA. so from buangkok green we walkkkeedddddd all da way to the buangkok station. wah biang frigging far la. stupid one sia. LOL. but we made a trip to IMH laaa and walkwalk see see. den tried to find our way to the mrt station which we have no idea where it was. after an hour or two treading in the watery grass n ground with much suaning from both sides.... we reached buangkok!!

indeed there were many thiings to makan! (: but we decided on zi cha. den we ordered like sweet n sour fish slices, pork, seaweed soup, rice and belachan kangkong. we ate till bursting point and it cost us oniii.... 22 BUCKS. sibei worth la. knn. ahahahah. anyway den we had a very long chat of ghost storiesss!! HAHAHA. damn farnie. den walked sy back to hg before heading home myself. was damn shagged alr sia.

den fri was a leave day fer me. so i spent my whole morning slackinggggg. ahahaha. den went out for bball game wid nic n ys. HAHAHAH the one on one on one thing again. den after much playing, we bathed n went amk hub where we met kaiying for a meal @ macs. ahahaha. one day we shall all go for KBOX!!! RARS. oh yes, durian picking session next year!! ON SIA!

den sat went to teach tuition to my tutee. i realised she beli cleber leh. her standard of english was a big wow. ahahaha. but as all lit ppl are, we're misunderstood. ahahaha. expression problems here n dere. but she's doing relatively well for most of her papers. except math. LOL. oh well, but had a gd time teaching her.

den rushed home b4 going off to meet my LTC (nyjc) mates @ orchard!! ahahaha we were going for lynette's 19 birthday bash held @ hard rock cafe. man, the ambience was not baddd. den we all chilled and ate nt bad food for 15 pax. den there was the celebration and live band n all. AS u can see from the pictures above. den made many new friends!!! HAHAHAHA. (:yays!

and now back to the sian mood of going to have to book in:( SIGH. the wk was so much fun. but also money consuming.

L

2008-10-11T21:22:00.000-07:00

What do you actually see?
The One competition
For all the guys (and girls) this is actually a bridge in tekong.
Wonderful day to my tutee's house
LIFE 4B!
WIS

[` Lincoln]
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Through bonding, separation, growing old and having unforgettable memories.
That's how we grow up(:

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heyheys(: back to blog after another long absence. forgive me for i have not blogged due to the lack of LIFE we have in the army and the amount of precious friends we have lost along the way. ahahah! there are jus so many ppl you could go out wid when you enter the army. everyone jus fades away. (: only then you could see who are ur true friends.

anyhow, life is beginning in a new pace n new direction. im like in MSET course now, initially i thought it was a frigging waste of time. but now i have been proven otherwise, cause i have certainly learnt a lot of knowledge and would be awarded an ITE cert soon. LOL. wth rite. i get a cert for nth. :D! oh well. i do have the best instructor in MSET, the most comprehensive -yet naggy-, TAN BEE KER!!! AHAHAHA. he rocks la pls. he's v funny wid his jump start tricks n all. kokster.

den i've taken up a tutee. *at long last*. ahahah. she's my camp mate's cousin luh. n needs help, so hence my services are rendered. lols. she's quite a bright student oni that, VERY LAZY AR. pokes* but we'll see wad we can do wid tt. maybe i could shape a potential single pointer scorer when the time is right(:! ahahah. but the house is kinda far. like bishan noe. oh wells.

cambodia trip is cancelled. *fug* but i guess i dont mind going to do more attachments wid other drs. ahahah. and yes, celebrate ppl, the recession is coming. =.= everything is going to die. hope tis period would past by the time im coming out of the army. sigh. nxt time take test for ISAT too. AHHH. :(. ahahah. oh hell to it.

going to RTU nxt thurs. sigh. den nxt month going for ATP. sai la. i mus get a marksman!!!! HAHAHAHA. den after tt go for ippt. den pass den i no nid go back tekong alr. oh wells. :D! lemme get TO NUS MED NXT YR. ARGH. AHAHAH. desperate alr! I NEED MY ORD.

went out wid a few ppl here n dere. peisi la, mariska and all. ahahah. man i do miss my social life which have seriously diminished to the verge of disappearing in an instant. i miss my jc life, life 4 and all. i seriously need to jus escape from NS. LOL. AWOL ARH. :p. kidding. ahahah. i jus need time to gather myself back after it was broken from the removal of my pink ic from my wallet.

army tml again. but every dark cloud has a silver lining. MDC TML! YAY. AHAHAHA. oh yes, went to han yu house to have a dana session wid ajahn brahm! he did let me realise a lot of things. ahahah. decisions are well thought of now due to an increase of wisdom n mindfulness.

ORD LUH.

L

2008-09-20T19:47:00.000-07:00

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hey guys! (and fair ladies!) long time since i have blogged! sigh mannn. ahahaha. well army life is getting settled here n dere. life has started to turn mundane once i have finished my orientation. current mileage is around 2k plus and i'm already a cat c2 driver. ahahah! yay. no more vehicle commanderrrrr (: beams! but maybe will have to do luggage detail soon. knn. :(! sigh. oh well, all for the damn mileage! i'm like chionging to reach 7k asap. doing a lot of top ups!! tt will help quite a bit in the long run! (:

anyways life does get quite bad in camp nowadays. a lot of arrows were shot @ me, cleaning up dead rats (though i believe i would be the best choice to do tt), to wash n polish cars to insanely perfect condition (tt i have still yet to achieve, cause their standard is ridiculous, they should demo one for me!) and the best of all. they say i never do anything!?!?!??!?! ARSE CRACK. GOT THE CHEEK TO TELL MEEEEEEEEEEEE, I NEVEEERRR DO ANYTTTTHINGGG!?!??!!??! HAHAHAA. they will kena retribution la. cannot take it. LOL! clean up tt rat crap for me next time, u simallion bitch.

anyway but the ppl are getting nicer! (:! as usual! anyway my slping time seem to get earlier and earlier and i'm desperately going to get fat if nothing is done soon about my exercise routine. i'mma like going to play basketball every night la. (except nights out) HAHAHA. i'm going to learn from jankin soon. siam arrows. siam ar siam siam siam siam. i'm like going to disappear for sum time here n dere. LOL. =X excellent!

sat went to imh to do sum performance! CIP! (:(:! AHAHAH. man, i donno if i should go for the medical mission that is upcoming. sigh. should i?? oh well. we'll see again soon. i will apply for OL soon i guesS? ARGH. ahahaha. and yes ytd was wonderful!! i fell sick. i tink i had food poisoning:( visited the toilet for a record of 18 times! HAHAHAHA. siao boh. den i had v bad stomach cramps. i tot i had menstrual cramps=X HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. man. poor girls. i now understand the pain u all go thru:(! u're all great!

visited SMU also! met up wid shiwen n ky. forgot to meet up wid shiyun. oh well. there will always be another time. smu is really beautiful!! ahahah. but pity no medicine course there or i definitely will go.sigh. ahahaha. for now, planning on my new exercise routine. and will approach my pc to ask if we could have permission to use the gym from the OETI. if can. HAHAHAAH. yayyyyy!!!!!!! (:

L

2008-08-23T16:48:00.000-07:00

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The Four Noble Truths

Dukkha (Nature of suffering)-Birth is suffering, aging is suffering, illness is suffering, death is suffering; sorrow, lamentation, pain, grief and despair are suffering; union with what is displeasing is suffering; separation from what is pleasing is suffering; not to get one's wants is suffering; anything subjected to clinging leads to suffering.

Samudaya (Suffering's origin)- Craving which leads to renewed existence, accompained by lust and delight, seeking delight here and there, that is, craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, craving for extermination.

Nirodha (Suffering's cessation)- The remainderless fading away and cessation of that same craving, the giving up and reliquishing of it, freedom from it, non reliance on it.

Marga (The way leading to Nirodha)- The Noble Eightfold path, that is, right view, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, right concentration.

May the truth of this bring happiness and release beings from suffering everywhere.

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hey everyones(:! long time since i last blogged. so much have alr happened man. ahahah. driving course is officially over!! the last few days in driving course was way sweet. got great instructors in the end! OUV was damn shiok. 3000cc car was like no joke pls. very shiok. lols. well, raced v happily with mercs n others. no one could beat my pick up speed pls. LOL. =X

oh wells. i also hung out wid MDC ppl! squash and badminton. :( my badminton racket is like lost. sigh. oh well, hope i'll find it soon. anyway also went for like a few sessions of MDC, tml i planning to go also leh! but i alr bought the ticket for the Nanyang film fest:(. i tink i'll just give it to nic or sumting. lols. maybe half price? =X. ahahah. took leave on tuesday morning. sigh. better clear b4 year end sia.

yes, lincoln has his first accident alr. LOL. knn la. go back unit 2nd day lang gah alr. cheese bun. =.=! amazingly i buanged a gate! HAHAHA. wth. i didnt notice la. got this reservice dude walking in front of me. den i stop too close to the gate luh. den when i moved off. buang gate. LOL. my damn car was dented. MY GOD. lol! sian diao pls. i tink i will get killed by csm when he returns. but i saw the togetherness of everyone in ltc by just that unfortunate incident. there would be people who would really shield u to the end. a big thanks to sg ezhwan, vickram, aman, sg ang, staff toh, oc, mdm song, wei kwan (ai zai rite!), hadi and more. lols. hope everything goes well n fine, wont mind signing maybe 1 or 2 extras.

ytd went to evg's interact installation. well, i did interact more than i did previously. ahahah. but wasn't very keen in sum parts of certain discussions. but u noe, not to make ppl unhappy. so i jus listened. aahah. made many new friends. all of whom are quite nice ppl! lols. hung out n tok cock wid them for very long. den went back wid mariska. after a long aftnn fixing the screwed up computer, i managed to piece it back together. lols. so it's workinnnggg. ahaha. i seriously miss my khao lak trip:(.

in the evening, went out wid suyi for dinner @ jalan kayu! bought my new street directory~!! yays. looks like damn nice n new pls. i'm like gonna install it into my fone. :D! oh wells! had ice cream prata, egg cheese n mushroom prata, roti john with chicken and honeydew drink. (:!! so nice. ahahahah. den mum cooked kong ba bao for me:):)!! yayyyyyyy. lols. was damn shiok pls. den tok n walked back wid her. den had a nice tok wid jankin about sum problems i've been facing. but thats how i appreciated the four noble truths better. i'm with too much attachments. sigh.

back to camp tonight. going for breakkie wid dad now. CHIONG ARHS.

L

2008-08-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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5 loaves and 2 fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender

[` Lincoln]
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Heysss everyones(:! ahahah. havent blogged for quite a while. been v lazy. ahaha. driving course is coming to an end alr!!! FAST HOR. wuahaha! sigh! (: oh yes. and i thought it was like the last time i'm going to see my favourite instructor after the 5 ton course all that fiasco. guess wad. DCP (drivers continuation programme), HE IS MY DAMN INSTRUCTOR AGAIN.KNNBCCB. argh! HAHAHAHA. i was like knn LA. how suay can one get!!! HAHAHA.

sent my mum off last sunday, she had to go to HK for sum company recrea thing. ahaha. shiok la. i'm frigging stuck in singapore all over again. den now i start to play MC alr. WUAHAHA!! well monday i went MDC!! YAY. ahahaha. i really miss those mondays when i could go MDC without tinking about the next day. i guess now i feel a lot more for those who work and all tt and we still stayed so late. a big sorry to jit seng for tt time @ renshang house. we stayed too late den u had work the nxt day. now i undstd why u were quite impatient. ahaha. it's cus i didnt really tink deep enuff n bothered for others. but still i'm human i guess. i'll do my best though!

den a lot of Off passes were given to the driving course ppl. ahahah. cause the instructors had to concentrate on the poor transport supervisors. while the drivers now took the backseat and chilled all da way! AHAHAH. well quite slack one la. anyway took MC on my birthday! HAHAHAAH. and a very meaningful birthday it was! (:

went to polyclinic in the morn. den nxt went to CDC and PCC to visit my dear mentor and friends in there! but i dont see andrew there anymore. it's kinda sad. mentioning about him. he got stage 4 cancer alr. sigh. ready to die, as dr lee said. but it's more of a surrender than acceptance after i chatted with him. weak as he is. but he was still quite clear headed and could ask for many stuff. LOL. oh well. but it is for friendship. he knows it is impossible to recover alr. i would love to show him the path to letting go, which is crucial @ his pt of time. however, its hard. amazed i am by blind faith. it's not nice to force ur beliefs though it might be the ultimate truth, upon others and others are allowed to have their own set of beliefs. so i respect that. just hope he could let go and go peacefully and not repeat the same mistakes all over again.

oh well, volunteered @ PCC for a while den talked to dr lee in his office. ahahah. not bad, i realised how much i've been like missing out since i've moved away from my civilian life. oh well. but much i have gained from NS too. i cant complain. *looks@ my driving license*. HAHAHA. mmmm, met up wid lai peng also. had a discussion with world vision. interesting people, very nice n helpful, straightforward was the meeting. ahahah made new frens too (:

den i went to meet xinqin and sis for dinner. HAHAHAHA, very fun to suan here n dere. den had a fantastic dinner which i paid nothing! got treated. wah the feeling v shuang pls. ahahah. (:! but a very big thank you to everyone who wished me n rmb-ed!! thank you beli beli muchi. ahahaha. this was the best birthday i ever had for 19 years. most meaningful and happy.

the nxt few days was intensive driving all over again. expert le la. wad to do. sigh. looking forward to drive the OUV though. 3000cc. my god. HAHAHAHA. i wanna see how it can chiong man!!! (:!!! HAHAHAHA. rocks pls! passed my assessment with flying colours of course!!! LOL. monday off (: YAYY. mdc again!!! (:

den today sent qian yong off, she's like going taiwan to work for a few months. nt bad la. shiok luh. ahahaha. den met up wid stella, nic and more. BBALL GAME TML!!! YAY. ahahahah.

returnin to unit soon. BOOOOOO:( and a big thank you to Kok wee for the free beer n red wine! HAHAHA(:

L

2008-08-06T20:02:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor

That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Six feet deep is my incision
In my heart, this barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision

Sunsetter
Nymphetamine.

[` Lincoln// Nymphetamine]
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hey everyones. a very long pause indeed since my last post. perhaps because life is starting to get a little mundane again. LOL. oh well. thats how life goes. up n down. mandai camp was a little hard to get to as the week started. had to go online and check the satellite map and cross it wid the 2 d one to make everything look understandable. got there on time, or rather too early. :D.

my DI was Y***t. wah lan eh, knnbccbljosigfhgirhq'gr!!!! LOL. wad a shit start it was. first day alr kena f until v jia lat. i tink my ass like got another hole or sumthing. i was like driving v ok for the first time on a mantruck, everything was so hard n different. but shuang la got air con. (:! den as i was going to make a U turn, i stopped to far from the stop line. so i stepped on the accel a bit. den he pulled the frigging handbrake. and shouted, "KANINABU CHAO CHEE BYE LA. FUCK YOU! CHEE BYE! NO BRAIN IS IT! WHY STEP ON THE FUCKING ACCELERATOR!! CHEE BYE NO BRAIN IS IT ARH!!!" i was like WTF!?!?!?!?!? so innocent was my move, so big was his reaction.

den he f me all the way. shoutshoutshoutshoutshoutshoutshout. den i started to lose my cool. the metta training was pushed to the limits man. pls. so i jus jam the accelerator. den he was fucking scared i swear. suddenly shut up and hold my steering wheel. LOL.help me control. ask me step accel oni. :D!!! den second time he also f me for a roaring start @ junction after the red light. eh, come on maannn. i endured all his bullshit stories about getting complained and how he was "victimized" by many trainees. give me sum air to breathe. and his breath stinks. prolly caused by chronic constipation?

after i parked. wah biang. he damn kan chiong. started to be like v nice and all that. sigh. den nxt day, repeated same shit. i was slowing down cause the vehicle in front wanted to stop and alr turned on the hazard lights. den he said, "cannot slow down and stop" so i was like like , fuck! okay! den i stepped on the accel. den he shouted, "CANNOT SLOW DOWN AND STOP!" den i was like okay damn!!! the cars on the right not giving way! DEN HE TOOK MY STEERING WHEEL AND SWERVED IT TO THE RIGHT LANE.

"CHEE BYE. FUCKKKKKKK YOU! NO BRAIN IS IT! I TOLD YOU CANNOT SLOW DOWN AND STOP!"

yes, insulted again. i followed his instructions. it turned out it was his horrid english. he meant "if cannot pass, please slow down". WTH LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. COME ONNNN. AHAHAHAHAHA. PLS. i was so tickled by it. i kept smiling. HAHAHAHAHA.

well the next few days were less eventful, cause everytime his voice raised, my accelerator roared. (:! humji. HAHAHAHA. drivers have tempers too ok. army drivers though wearing green, we got our rights too! SO THERE. :P.

looking forward to the weekends. reported sick today. due to skin being too sensitive. ytd had quite a fun time @ outfield. ahahah. but of course, missing ernest and sixu to trek into the greenery with me to fun durians and rambutans. HAHAHA. a big thanks to mum for buying my sony ericsson battery! (:

assesment for 5 ton, 4 demerit points oni. WUAHAHAHAHA. ownage. (:!! hehehe. course end soon= going back unit soon. ARH SIAN AR. :(. ahahaha. frens frens pls meet up soon. i miss u all.

my pink icccc:(

L

2008-07-29T06:11:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Who are we hurrying for
And what is the reason we are
Take a moment
To lead a life of purity and peace
Perhaps
You will find things will be good and happy
With plain simplicity.

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyones! after 6 days of civilian life, i feel like i ORD alr leh. HAHAHA. :)! but tml, it's, *snap back to reality* 5 tonner course. SIAN AR. ahaha. but oh well. hope things would go well and i wont screw up! if not they confirm say my tp license buy one. :D. ahahah.

the 6 days ar. spent in a lot of bballing. knn. can say as though i eat slp n breathe bball for 6 days. ahahah. but nt bad, skills coming back! (:! won quite a bit. i also went for HCA hospice care memorial for the deceased. invited by renshang. wah damn gd la. he's quite an inspiration in pallative care by being able to spread the dharma amidst his job. zai-ness! i tinking of joining BF soon sia. oh well. lets see.i have yet to visit my dear IMH patients n CDC patients too.

gone back to nyjc to take my SGC. beautiful beautiful! except for the damn C for pw. knn wasted man! sai sai sai! if can redo confirm will. ahahah. nvm luh. hope things are pathed out beautifully. (:! anyways went out wid "sasen" ernest and sixu and aman for dinner @ CARNIVORE! chijmes there. dinner was f up ex la. but worth it wid the company(:! stayed out till quite late.

caught the "X-FILES" movie wid vanessa, not the marathoner. ahahaha. the movie rocked pls. damn nice show. had dinner @ Fish n Co. damn nice pls. sigh if oni my camp food were that gd. but mandai camp the canteen is like totally IMBA la! damn nice food also. so looking forward tml:(. HAHAHA. but sian leh go back army. oh well. 18 months more left soon. lols. cant wait.

went back nyjc today again, jus to hang out wid my beautiful juniors and friends whom i miss so dearly! ahahah. played bball and met a new gd fren. jus ord=.=. knn. ahahah gd life. anyway my turn will come. so no hurry. lol. played matches la. was particularly proud of my team, being able to win quite a tough team. ahaha. 11-5. ownage ppl! den collected javin's SGC for him. lols.

met up wid javin and had a damn long chat la. wid zijie they all den over dinner. i guess everyone is moving well in their life. annabella, my damn successor for studies in nchs, has officially surpassed me. HAHAHA. damn zai pls. her studies is damn damn gd la. ass man. LOL. had my fave sweet n sour pork rice. woots!(: parted kinda reluctantly wid everyone sia. never noe when everyone would forget one another.

anyway mandai camp 2 tml! start of a new beginning! ROAR. (:

L

2008-07-23T17:15:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I’m letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you’ll always be a part of me
i’m a part of you indefinitely
girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby

i ain’t gonna cry no
and i won’t beg you to stay
if you’re determined to leave girl
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you’ll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no

[` Lincoln]

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hey everyones! back ahgain. :D. nice song above, david cook's " you will always be my baby". lols. his voice is uber rock like. nt bad. hahaha. anyways havent blogged much for so long sia! so much have happened! i have passed my class 3 n 4 license! HAHAHA. cause on first attempt i passed, i get 6 days OFF. WUAHAHA. :P! 6 days of civilian life pls. i think i should go work out. cause these few days have no time to go gym @ all.

a very big big thank you to all my instructors who have taught me. Mr Meslee, my theory instructor, Mr Mohd Yusof, parking instructor(rover), Mr Shu Wee Tong, parking instructor(tonner), Mr Ang (stand in parking instructor, tonner), all the DTSS instructors who are so understanding n allowed me to turn off the motion of the dreaded simulation machine, Mr Shankar aka Shanks (ACOE), Mr Steven Chong, Mr Liow, Mr Yeoh, Mr Leon, and of course my wonderful DI(driving instructor), Mr Mohd Yusof! Different guy from the parking instructor k. lols.

i admit he did screw me up big time on the first few days. I was so frigging stressed out! sigh. but i guess he got nicer by the day. ahaha! now damn fren! (:! haas! best DI ever.

sat was spent wid my Sir Lionell camp mates! As u can see by the previous post's pictures! ahahah. lester joined us too! (: we went Mind's Cafe to makan n play! damn high sia. actually was quite reluctant to climb out of my i-dont-play-such-games shell. but once i did. WHOO HOOO! AHAHAH. all play till damn shuang pls. den we went arcade n all den i went back early to retire. army can be so tiring. :D.

sun was spent wid my nyjc's CT grp. i returned raine her 40 bucks @ last. ahahah. den we all went to play @ sum other mind's cafe like place. den of course i was alr an expert. had secret training from sat. so i didnt do much forfeit. :D. poor shujia did the most. ahahah! but damn fun n high again luh! (:

mon was spent doing advanced skill training for driving. to prepare us more for our driving in the case we meet such situations or go overseas! ahahah but i highly doubt i will go anywhere. :D. LTC has none of these exciting events but we lead v gd lives. ahaha!

tuesday was wonderful! OUTFIELD @ LOR ASRAMA! HAHAHA. long no.4, field packs. reminded me of my BMT days man. ahaha. go for cross country terrain luh. (:! damn fun pls! not oni the driving part though. sum instructors are jus so hum ji. if they are not bothered by the bumps n humps and sharp turning, i'll go @ gear 4 or 5 on a cross country terrain. ahaha! but the fun part of the day was hunting for durians and rambutans n spiders n exotic wildlife wid sixu and ernest! :)!

saw like a golden silk batik spider or sumthing along tt line. so beautiful! the web it spun was gold. wow rite! sixu being an elitist wildlife lover fed the poor grasshoppers to it=(. sigh. ahaha. tried to transfer merits to them. mmmm. den we had a fun time trying to knock down the rambutans wid stones, branches and what not. *no chance ppl, dont try it, never drops*. tried kicking durian trees. :D. *doesnt work either*

had night driving wid NIGHT VISION GOGGLES! WHOO HOOOOO. it's not as cool as those in movies. actually, it's the 1st generation NVG, so it is way not cool, heavy and a pain in the ass. ahahah. but it was definitely an experience:D. i was as blind as a mole. pls. my DI had to lead me to the door and open it for me. :D!

wednesday was driving in water! they say got crocs, but see none. tried sum of the long awaited durians! IT WAS GREAT!!?!! AHAHAH. brought one home=X. but unripen though. sigh. sorry dad! :D. went rambutan hunting and durian hunting again. managed to get a few durians back. cause there was tis major gale blowing in the morn. ahahah. the spider was still there:D. den warrant ang had tis ultra long talk and spot check on our bunks so ended up returning v late. sigh:(.

but the course has ended for my dual vocationalist friends. (:. i would definitely miss them a lot. sumtimes i do wonder if we all meet in a group for a reason or it is jus as simple as our fates are simply tied due to past karmic consequences. ahaha. either way, i've learnt to open up n appreciate the ppl more. u will never noe wad you miss out until when everyone leaves and part their separate ways. (:! i'm glad i've made so many great friends!! all the 128 Squadron, 1st SIR, 3rd Guards! (: keep in contact guys.

went dr lee's house too! for MDC session. NEXT MONDAY I CAN GO TOO. YAY. ahaha. (:! k luh. till then. fri is BMT FFI, CONFIRM FAIL. ahahaha:P.

L

2008-07-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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A picture speaks a thousand words.

Sir Lionell rocks!(:

L

2008-07-12T23:04:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Now it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left, Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt if I was in way to deep, guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running a long long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you know, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together

'cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

[` Lincoln]
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heys everyone! back from another long wk but going back in in just a few hours. going for sum chinese physician later to fix up my stupid back. HAHAHA! long wk it was but fruitful too. :D. a great big announcement that i passed my HSP on the second try! mr krishnan is a damn nice guy, helped me wid my last damn board! HAHAHA. heng sia. but it's quite gd tt i passed after going thru 4 scenario drive in DTSS. (:!

growing older may be a gd thing as it gets u exposed. but sumtimes it's kinda disgusting to wad u're exposed to. it's real life real situations. you get to see the appalling nature of humans and their dark obsessions wid fornication, desires and ill-will.

well i shant say who but jus give sum random alphabets to represent them. X has this 22 yo girl from uni who he pays for sex (200 an hour or two) and worse of all, he's married wid children. Y is 60+ of age and has a china wife of 20 + yo and happily proclaims his wonderful deed of peeking @ his teacher's undies when he was in pri sch and slapping n grabbing the girl's boobs who told on him, the whole incident landed him wid 10 strokes of cane. Z has a Filipino wife and he's like one of my fren, not that i'm mean but i tink it's just for the money.many guys go geylang @ my age, or pick up girls for one night stands @ pubs and throwing them away after use.

@ times like these i really am v saddened by the state of the world. how come the adult world has to b this dark n depressing. fornication has of course long been in the males obsession but i didnt know to this desperate extent. all i could do is jus hope that the karma they reap would have a lighter sentence on them and that they could instead realise their mistakes n change over a new leaf.

tt aside, my driving @ the start of the wk is nothing but short of impressive. ahahah. i screwed up big time due to sum emotional stress. my fren said i drove like sum initial D guy cause my vehicle keeps being like a snake=.=. but he's down wid dengue now, hope he does get better. lols. ahaha. i did get better in mid wk after a gd red bull in the morrow. drove like sum pro. LOL. but my standard improved loads after tt day. more confidence. as usual, night driving is nothing short of amazing! HAHAHA. :)

sy's bf went into army too! ahahha:) he so garang, confirm do well inside one la! but hope he could take the emotional, mental n physical stress all @ once. jit seng was like damn correct. army breaks u down until u donno who the hell u are or wad is ur personality. but i'm so lucky i had the dharma to cling on for my actions. (: so all turned out fine for me. life in NS is like sian n lonely @ times. but luckily there are really gd frens there who are there also in the same plight. :D.

visited jolyn wid LIFE 4 ppl! she fractured her leg during OCIP tis yr. watched dodgeball! ahahaha! i'm looking for damn nice metal songs. any intro? my music is my expression!

have to collect my cert soon, den my driving test is nxt wk, height n lashing n parking test is nxt wk. ARGH!!! nxt wk is like a hectic wk. let me have a better life pls! i need an escape! ahahah!

the world had vermins inhabiting
a big black hole that's filled with shit.
but how many could arise
and save those tainted souls?

L

2008-07-06T03:39:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Time flies
We ought to cherish our present
And forget about the past
And not worry about the future
Cause since everything is uncertain
Why not make a difference right now?
In this moment?

[` Lincoln]
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heys everyones(: back after another long wk. though i'm like going back to camp in an hour plus. sigh! back to camp again. i bet everyone is sick n tired of hearing me talk about army life. ahaha! oh well, but thats all thats happening in my life right now, so i got no choice. bear wid it till 2010. HAHA. but i suppose life would start to be different once i settle in and everything. 582 days to ORD.

i passed my land rover assessment alr! (: night driving rocks! HAHA. i think i drive so much better at night. cause prolly not hot so not so frustrated if i make a mistake. ahaha. my DI is very nice, gosh, still rmb the first day when we met. kanasai. he treated me like sum scum sia. screwed me upside down inside out. cause i really donno how to drive! HOW? :D! but now damn fren alr la. know he got kids, wad his wife is doing as a living n all. v interesting. @ the same time i let him know about my hopes n aspirations. bonding. (:

i failed my HSP. sigh. by one frigging board oni LA. stupid me. wasted my oni chance. ahahah. nvm la. tues retest! i will mug hard hard for it. at the same time i'm moving on to drive the 3 tonner truck. the steering is enough to make me sweat like sum cock. cannot take it sia. uniform need to change so many times summore. ahahah. oh well. i am wondering how can i make life more interesting! while being on course my life is so limited:(. sat book out sun book in. wth pls. sigh! but have been catching up wid many ppl lately.

good newS? my physiotherapist says i'm getting better n she could discharge me after 2 more sessions or so. but i doubt it. my back still hurts. sigh. oh well(:! tt day was like the worst day of my damn life. cause the day b4 i knocked down a bird while driving -i donno how to f i did it-, so prolly karma. i failed my HSP, went home never bring key, go nic house no one, go take bus ezlink expired, no coins. CHAMPION. AHAHA. but i guess since it was unintentional the last was i broke my left hand's middle finger's nail while climbing down the 3 tonner during parking. bled like siao. ahaha. but lucky karma now than later. sigh. met up wid carol @ jack place and saw liyue in tm. :D.

today went out wid evon! long lost buddy! ahaha. had lunch @ ajisen ramen. den had a major tok cock session, shopping session. lols. quite fun la! :). nxt wk going out wid my L.I.F.E 4b ppl! mi gosh! i miss everyone! khao lak was so fun and it was just last yr? ahaha. i could rmb the beautiful scenery n all! the children and also leslie=.= who made us the sai gang warriors. HAHAHA. but it's all for gd fun and for helping others! so hell to it! (:

sigh. 1 hr to camp. :(. i miss everyone.

L

2008-06-29T02:59:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on he's doomed
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away.

[` Lincoln]
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heys everyones. (: back from one wk of camp again. and going on for another wk of it. :D. i will pull through it! i will finish this damn course! ahahah :D! under a lot of stress, again i've so much to live up to. oh well. i'd better get used to it! it's like back to school all over again. it's like driver's BMT. oni this time i will complete it. :).

tuesday is my physiotherapy wid the hot lady. ahaha. looking forward to it. (: den tues n thurs is night training-.-. MY BEAUTY SLP IS GONE. crap. :(. den my HSP test is like on wed, fri is my rover assessment test. OH me gosh. i better do well!!! :(. i wanna proceed onto tonner n den passing my tp! ARGH. stresssss.

today went to celebrate suyi's bd! ahaha. pity jan isnt here. if not he would definitely join us for quite a nice meal!! went to amk hub's fish n co to makan. den went to get mum's bd present. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM. pity i wont be there tml. if not could celebrate. but i bought for her a bonzai plant. (:! yays! ahaha.

i hope i got the mood to blog longer. i miss jc. i miss the days i was busier wid going out. LOL. :(. back to the public roads tomolo....... if u guys see me driving. pls wave. i will b around pasir ris, tampines n loyang area. not geylang:P. HAHAHA.

L

2008-06-21T00:52:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyones:) back again! well. 5 n 1/2 day of driving course in STC. SHAG ARRRR. ahahaha. i'm getting fat! we're not allowed to run or jog. but can go gym. wth? :D but nonetheless. made a lot of new n gd frens wid the guards n specs. :)! but they're all ORD-ing earlier than me.:(. damnit.

well STC has nicer n cleaner bunks than ayer rajah. but the thing is tt it is quite hot due to the lousy ceiling fans and also the swarming mosquitoes. i was convinced that i was back in bodhgaya. HAHAHA. kidding. anyways had sum trouble wid the mozzies. got like maybe 30 bites alr? craziness la. lols. everynight give them free blood dana sia. :D

oh well. i've got a very strict instructor! sigh. but as long as i do things swee swee, he wont f me. i kena f on the first day till i was like very stressed out!!! ahahaha. thanks to 3rd guards n aman and everione else. i guess everyone else was also going through the same shit. :D. changing gear for a manual car was v hard to master. it's not helping when my team mate alr has a class 3 license for like 3 yrs alr. =.= so yes u noe. mr yusof expects me to b @ tt guy's lvl.

but in these 3 days i really did improve by bounds n leaps! mr yusof has been v nice to me now! :D! cause prolly i passed the highway code test for the SAF wid 47/50!! HAHAHA. quite proud. but it's lousy la. many scored full:( ahahaha! den have been doing mad circuits!! jeez! :D. but fun la!! hehehe. public road on WEDNESDAY! scary but exciting again! :)

last night till tis morning has been frigging eventful! my bunks have been raided twice. meaning broken into. locks were broken and all! den items were missing from many of my fellow course mates' lockers. poor shit man. psp, 200 dollars, sweets=.=, shower foam =.=, shampoo =.=, red bull -_____-, field pack -_______-ll and FHM AHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! so funny. tiko stealer pls. but no joke sia. SIB n MP all came down to investigate. gave 2 of my precious thumb prints. LOL. den we stayed on 2nd floor from 8.50pm till 5am tis morning! =.= why? the suspect, okay, the main culprit wid his sidekick bunk mate were interrogated. the main culprit confessed n handed out everything. den the bunk mate was ordered back @ 1am.

we couldnt go back to bunk cause everything was evidence=.= wtf right! den we were shifted to the hideout mess from 3.30am till 5am. den allowed to go back bunk. 5.20 fall in for breakfast. WTF LA. HAHAHA. den we were still driving today. omg man. seriously. LOL! but as usual mr yusof was nice n understanding knowing i was really tired. den nowadays we could start toking cock n all. LOL. fun la! :).

jus came home though. sigh. tiring!!! tml book in again! =.=

L

2008-06-15T03:33:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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久 jiu 未 wei 放 fang 晴 qing 的 de 天 tian 空 kong
依 yi 舊 jiu 留 liu 著 zhe 妳 ni 的 de 笑 xiao 容 rong

[`Lincoln]
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hey everyones:) back to blog again. after reading the class blog n sms. i went to look through the past fotos of 0619. 06. so long time ago alr sia. lols. makes me feel so old. ahaha. sigh. emo session begins.

looking through those fotos on the class blog, it really made me sigh n smile! those times flew past us and we didnt treasure it enough. i think we just let things slip through our fingers unknowingly.when i look @ those old fotos. i surprisingly found myself missing nyjc a lot. more of missing 0619 a lot. ahaha. they're the ones who showed me another side of the society. the ppl who accepts u for who u are.den had so many fun moments!! chalet la, sentosa trip la. SO MANY N MANY. lols. den one more bbq coming up. but i dont tink i can make it sia. :D. drivers course is a 5 n 1/2 day work wk. sigh.

oh yes and after perhaps around 60+km of travelling and wasting over 16 dollars in just transportation fees alone, i managed to send my dear friend off to aussie! though it was merely a 10 to 15 min meet up before he went into the customs, it was worth all the hassle n trouble i went through. i did my physio, which i tink worked perfectly well as my back seemed much better after doing the exercises. and i've got a hot physiotherapist. all the more it makes life better in this bleak current situation of mine.

monday is driving course! oh well @ least i'm going wid aman, a damn nice guy! and i saw si xu in my course too! so it's definitely a up turn of things after the fiasco @ LTC. ahaha. i hope things will go perfectly safe n fine. :). times does fly. i still rmbed the day jan sent me off to tekong. we were sitting on the back of my dad's truck and enjoying the morning breeze and talking what might or could've happened. i could've gone ocs. but i'm here. :D. talking about army. i gotta pack my bag later. sigh.

ytd was well spent! went out wid kaicher, jaryl and my sis. had breakkie wid family as usual:). den went ecp wid the mdc ppls. cycling la. chatting. discussing. i felt my civilian life return for an instant. i was jus another person:) ahahah. not a damned recruit made to do shit work and forced to bitch about our superior's potency. AHAHA. :P. was supposed to meet my dear jaguar coy for clubbing but thought otherwise as it would be highly detrimental to my monday's performance in the driving shit.

i miss everyone. can everyone pop up in my life?
if i were given another chance. i would make a hell lot of a difference. every moment will b well spent:)

L

2008-06-07T18:13:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我感动还留着

冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你
慢慢忘记你

朦胧的世界
我们聊了多远
沿道画的圈
圈起了谁改变

如果在重来
会不会消失那么远
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟

让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都化好了
要我怎么记得

记得你让我忘了吧
记得你将我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyones. i shall blog as frequently as possible. ahaha. cause i'm going to stay in today alr:(. wth. lols. well, @ least i will get to save money @ last. stay out requires quite high expenses. oh wells. ahaha. the wkends have been v peaceful! friday n sat evenings were spent @ kai zhao fa shi's talk on karaniya metta sutta. i've finally a great view about practicing metta. he's going for a month n half's vesa i tink. wish him attain a higher level of spirituality.

saturday's morning was spent eating bar chor mee wid my parents n sista. :). i love family gatherings. den the rain was so heavy, so eating the hot hot soup based noodles was definitely a luxury n comfort. lols. den we popped by @ mangala vihara temple where there was dana to the maha sangha. sadhu sadhu sadhu. :). aftnn was spent lazing @ home n reading "old path white clouds". DANGS la. :(. i forgot to go for the IMH's stuff.

today should be packing my stuff for my stay in. den later buying stuffs for stay in. den go get my stuff from jankin's housie. SUCH A BUSY DAY! @ night book in by 2230. AIYA. :(. nehmind. NS will fly past me asap:). 2 more days to pay day n official announcement of 20 months left!!!! :):):) lols. congratulations to jankin ho Z C for officially ORD-ing. :D.

br is still dying to get his excuse boots. javin is awaiting for revocation. LOL. wth ppl. wth. why does everyone wanna get out of driving? i also wanted initially. but i guess if i'm placed in a tough situation, i must fight on. life will get better. impermanence was observed when i came in wid n kept complaining about my csm. but metta taught me otherwise. :). i will go on. my out field's in frigging orchard road. envy me ppl. :D.

20 month 20 month 20 month.

L

2008-06-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you.

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide.

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best falls down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find that you and I collide.

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind.

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyones:) back to blog again. man. so much ave happened. i, bing rong n wai sun made it to LTC. but br is trying to get out. :D. sigh sia. ahaha. i donno about me but i'm waiting for my specialist review. once i know wads wrong wid my back, i would not mind treating it and all n being a driver (provided i get my damn down pes on the next medical appointment). LOL.

ltc is the best vocation, wid the shittest -ahem-. i shant say much. can kena charged. lols. ahaha. but the people there are truly great. daniel la, javin la, khairil la, lee la... everyone la. :)! they make the place bearable n fun. but the job is seriously damn mentally tiring. it's under using ur brain until u feel it's overusing your brain. HAHA. the weather is damn hot too so i got a bad migraine everyday. sigh.

den ytd i did my first ACOS understudy. followed khairil. damn stupid la. sweep floor, throw rubbish, return key press, take rations, den STONE. wait for all the detail drivers to return! i wait till 11.30 den hide @ one corner n stone. i was reading "Old path White clouds". buddhist lit. DAMN entrancing and interesting. i couldnt put the book down. ahahah. words used are simple yet profound. i read till i slpt @ 11.30. HAHAHAHA. nt supposed to cause staff toh nt back YET. he is quite a nice guy but inconsiderate abt us. he 1.30am den go slp. wtf la.

but den again i was alr in dharma dreamland. ahahaha. i woke up @ 2am and promoted myself from the chair to the sofa. damn COLD. even in smart 4 n boots i was shivering. seriously shivering. I NEED A DAMN BLANKET LA. :D. felt like india during winter. sigh. woke up again @ 3.30. den fell asleep wid the book beside me. gave me comfort n warmth. LOL. woke up @ 5.30. den collect rations. den was dying for a bath n hand over. i was itching all over!!?!?!

morning came. i bathed. powdered my feet. felt damn gd. didnt slp though. ahaha. i went to read the book again. in the changing room. LOL. den in the detail room. den got two cups of milo. den rest n relac. all the way till 1.30pm. HAHAHA. my duty rest is nt slping sia. it's reading n reflecting abt life. but it made my day feel worthwhile!! :). joyful.

den back to saigang. but mindful sai gang. a large distinction!!:):):). well! had a lot of fun toking cock wid daniel, br, wai sun, javin. MAN. when a grp of guys tok together. HAHAHAHAHAAH. sick stuff.

detailing for IISS was damn stupid, waste of time. HOWEVER, got a damn gd meal, the design n architecture of shangri-la was spectacular. LOL. learnt how to coms, wad to expect for our "field camp" and most of all. there're BABES! omg. :D.

k la. tml got run again. planning to go see kaizhao fa shi. but hope could get time to go n bathe. if not ask my dad bring me down or sumthing. :).

L

2008-05-23T19:48:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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널 수친 바람 날 수칠텐데
널 비춘 햇살 날 비출텐데
너와 난 같은 세상 속에서
다른 세상을 사나봐

너무 보고 싶어서 자꾸 하는 가슴이
너없는 내 모습이 참 가여워
자고 나면 빚처람 불어난 그리움
미칠듯이 널 찾고 있는데

<<한마디만>>

[` Lincoln// One word]
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hey everyones! back to blog again! :). i had a damn 9 days holiday. shiok rite shiok rite. in this time, my brain started to work n come back to me. yaysss! :D well a bit of civilian life is enough to kick start my engine again. i spent like 3 days swimming continuously. damn xiong. lols. played the slide @ the swimming pool. really is wtf man. HAHAH but damn fun. turned uber black.

den spent the week catching up wid many many ppl luh. went out wid kaixian, xinmei, jankin, eileen for dinner @ plaza sing's manhattan fish. their Alaskan pollock is damn damn NICE PLS. ahahaha :). i loved it totally. den also went back to NYJC to visit my fellow juniors, teachers and even talked to mr kwek. :). nice guy. wanted to treat me drink n food siaaaa! HAHAH. :). maybe i should go help out in LTC one of these years. i will make it damn fun for all my friends. :D.

i joined in for the discussion of the Nanyang Film Festival! :) damn fun la. to see how everything really is planned. den summore read the scripts n things they wrote. damn damn interesting pls. :). i am definitely looking forward to watch it. ppl go watch too k. :). ahahah. den my juniors are all v nice ppl la. like them sia. :). den caught up a bit wid lynette n chuxuan cause they were in the cca too. :D! walked back to the mrt wid chuxuan.

den ytd caught up wid roxanne for dinner @ whitesands. wah biang. like sum swakoo. tot kopitiam needed the card den can buy food sia. wtf. HAHAHA. the meal was okok, but it was worth the monayy. lols. den we all walked to downtown n look see look see. man. roxanne's social circle makes me look like a depressed low profiled introvert who has zero networking n minimal friends. LOL. and those who noe me, can know the extent of her network. siao one. walk anywhere also got her friend. go pasir ris park hor. in the middle of the ulu beach. SEE FRIEND AGAIN. wah biang. if i were her i would tink there is no place i can go without seeing anyone. :D

had a damn long n funny tok to her la. about sch, life and how much we have all grown up. cause knew her since sec 1. den still chatted about how sian life can get and damn stupid n funny things in the army! :D. *sorry ppl, all i can talk about now is just army*

tis wk also had very long chats wid carol. ahahah. damn fun but also it is kinda destressing i guess. :)! jia you for exams! n gd luck mannn.

did call up royce, wanted to meet platoon 1. but they oni booking out today. and i believe it's only 11.16am, so they will have another few hours b4 they appear! HAHAHA. mmm. suay. but drivers course starting. so oh well. civilian license HEREEE I COMEEEEEEEEE. LOL. :).

had breakkie wid parents. sister's in hong kong holiday. cant believe it. damn gd life. ahahaha. den i going to IMH later luh! help out:). den meet jan for swim n dinneer @ homeee. AHHHHHHH. MY 9 DAYS IS ENDING. :(.

L

2008-05-14T02:01:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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2 am and the rain is falling
Here we are
At the crossroads once again
You telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind

Is this meant to be
You're asking me.

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe
For you and me
The sun will shine one day

So i just play my part
And pray that you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love
Can do.

In your arms
As the dawn is breaking
Face to face
And a thousand miles apart

I tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

[` Lincoln]
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heyhey ppl. surprised to see me?? IT'S WEDNESDAY AND I'M ONLINE. :)!! lols. cause Lincoln is officially posted out of tekong after 3 plus wks of OOT. wth. ahaha. going to a unit, sembawang camp, wtf. lols. but gonna be a driver. so it aint matter. :D! hopefully get my damn license!

the song above is "only love" by trademark. damn nice song. oldie, but should hear! :).

it was a very eventful 3 days for me. lols. SOF became slacker! lols, that is gd news, but we don't have tt much fun anymore. like those days we bitch about the sergeants in the back of the tonner. enjoying the morning n evening breezes of tekong. and no more hard labour. we are doing normal sai gang alr. :) the SSM fucked the CSM, COS, DOS ytd, so the CSM fucked us SOF. HAHAHA. wth man. down the damn chain. so we were sweeping the whole company line, mopping, picking out weed. pls. wad a job. HAHA. funny thing, after tt CSM fucked the company and they had STAND BY UNIVERSE. cHampIoN! i tried to sneak up but in the end fell down the whole flight of damn stairs. =.= lucky CSM nt there.

den had time to even slp in bunk. ahaha. the new storeman or rather old, cause he went for recourse, is very lazy. cannot tahan. everything also OOT OOT. Sweep store, OOT. Carry dummy rifles, OOT. Take out ration, OOT. Clean his butt after he shit, OOT. HAHAHA. kiddin on the last one. he better buck up sia, if not in life, surely screw up. den again, army is to train us to become sum man who is able to avoid arrows from superiors and to taichi it back to them.:)

it was a very emotional day ytd. took my x ray from the PTMC1, den went back n wrote letters to platoon 1, "best commander" platoon sergeant "xacvolution", platoon commander 2LT li hao, sect coms, 3rd SG abbas, deren, poon, reuben, SOF OC, 2IC, CSM: MR. Bu (HAHA), 3SG muzakhir and CQ azuan. :). wah biang. damn sad shit. read out my message to platoon 1. and i dont believe i frigging cried. LOL. damn sad sia. leaving everyone alr. will never meet the same bunch of guys! but life goes on! i saw sum change in everyone. and gd change of course! poon n reuben opening up to platoon 1. first time i see. :). I LIKE. :D

thanks to platoon 1 for all the appreciation for all the work i did, but it was definitely my duty. thanks for all the handshakes, all the manly hugs, chest bumps, and =.=, 3 kisses, 2 from wilson n 1 from ban hao. HAHAHAHA. wtf man. if any other ppl saw tt, it will be damn damn sick. :D. no wonder camera fones are not allowed in tekong. PLATOON 1, OUTING SOON HOR! POP INVITE ME HOR!

i did a last concert with civilian attire. Usual black corporate and jeans. played 5 songs for my dear platoon 1 comrades! ahahah. evidently everyone enjoyed their time!! so it was gddddd. ahahaha:). a nice way to end my stay @ Jaguar Coy.

today rushed finish my last few jobs for SOF, den had breakfast with my platoon 1, den later lunch wid SOF before going off. The rain was terrible. Maybe tekong didnt wan me to go. HAHAHA. metta does wonders.:)! anyway rushed thru the rain with bingrong and satthiya. wah biang. it was a back breaking experience. and everyone tot we POP. HAHAHA. sorta though..... :P.

Den waited for all the poly students to clear out of the terminal there. all pattern a lot. hair long long, dye, skinny jeans, colourful clothes n jacket. man. i rmb i was like tt. but jus a yr later. all the guys. will realise. botak. green. brown. black. is the colours they could jus have. :D. we look much neater n well groomed of course! :)

NEW CAMP TML. hope it wont be xiong:(

L

2008-05-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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All my life I've waited.
This is true.

[` Lincoln]
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hey ppl! back from field camp. though i din participate, we were like the main supporters. carryin 20kg jerry cans donno how many countless times, setting up tents, moving items, clearing trash. i wonder how would they survive without us. HAHAHAHA. :P. SOF rocks! Special OOT Force!! pity ricky posted out alr. soon it'll be zhengkai and nigel. the backside party IS GONE.:(. but it was certainly a pleasure to work wid them. SOF!

anyways. field camp was v shag. i tink the OOT was doing things like a status A personnel. pls. and after 1 wk of intense exercise. 8 pull ups alr. from 4 pls. like wtf LA. ahahaha. but thanks to it too.:). nxt wk it's back to intensive running! wuahaha. anyway field camp was v exciting for SOF too. we like sat HELL rides in the 5 tonner. den squeezed wid the commanders @ the back. it was a very different exp and one exp tt my friends would nt get to see. the work behind all the successful field camps, work of the SOF! SG WARRIORS! SG= sai gang.

i loved the times wid our CQMS= bu, muzakhir, azuan! dey sorta brightened the days of us OOTs when our morale were very very low. cause imagine we oni got 8 OOTs, plus 3 commanders helping out. 11 ppl, providing for 200+ ppl. we're like totally out numbered!!!!! den everyone is like saying OOT life slack. well. try it. :D. on normal days, quite la. but in field camp, i'm as shag as those in the jungle. lols. we had like a very wet last day! damn fun pls. spray water! throw ice. HAHAHAHA. was damn fun. a worthwhile celebration. and we booked out early! OMG LA. HAHAHA. shiok!!!

today went out wid carol n jankin! ahaha. went to billy bombers for lunch, den hung out, traded in psp, all those crap. den went home wid jankin. den suyi popped by. so we hung out @ my house till late. shag day. ahaha. but damn fun. i miss every single one of my friends. i wanna meet up but time is certainly not on my side. lols.

anyways. maybe the australian dream might be a far fetched one. might nt have the financial capabilities for me to go into med. ahaha. but i will still try of course! scholarships n anything. :D. i got accepted to NTU's aerospace engin fac too. :). nt a bad news. anyway going to meet up wid xuan tml. den nxt sunday going for the candlelight celebration @ TTSH. @ long last. :). getting back my life.

meanwhile i will wait for a late book in tml, pray for lesser sai gang, have the financial capabilities and able to go aussie, to get back my life n brains, and wishing all i noe happiness, especially all the mums! happy mothers' day:).

L

2008-05-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

There are things in life
Only when you lose them
You will then realise their importance
Impact
And how they really make up your life as a whole.

The future is always uncertain
Dark looming
Or bright and sunny
There are times I just feel like sitting down at this current spot
And just be in this moment

To enjoy every single thing
That is permanent
At this moment
This second

[`Lincoln]
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hey everyone! happy labour day! i am seriously enjoying this holiday cause i worked damn damn freaking hard for it pls. sighs. army is damn fun, but @ the same time full of waiting, full of missing friends and family, full of sai gang. bi zhe is alr out of tekong, one less OOT member. hahs. i always wonder when will it be my turn. when would i leave jaguar company, my platoon, my section and the beautiful sights of tekong, like the beautiful sunrise and the star spreaded skies, those days we just get tekkan, those days we spent cleaning and playing wid our "wives" HAHAHA. our m16s1 rifles la. :). the long awaited book out days.

seriously i regretted OOT-ing though i have no choice. this company is the company i could ever dream of having and is the company i would want to go out to war with and die by their sides. they're just too trustworthy and dependable.

but i hope i get enough time to say goodbye to everyone in platoon 1 jaguar. and tell them my expectations and hopes for them. hoping everyone would keep in contact. :)!

went out with 0619!!! :). i still rmb the times, when everyone was fresh in orientation, everyone were like close to everyone. now we're alr old friends. knowing each other for already 2 years plus. it was nice to just meet up. even if we're all leading our lives and some moving on nicely:) there're times i do really wonder, what do i really want out of life. everyone would die one day. if i were not able to let go of everyone, at least let me be numb to it.

k box-ed again! HAHAHA. it was nice to sing with everyone again. and as usual. the guys are all talking about army. LOL. joker sia everyone. sorry to the girls for letting u guys feel left out man! :D. it is a different experience to walk around wid a botak head.

booking in tml. 1840. :) sigh. FIELD CAMP nxt.

Let me have the strength and courage to move forward.

L

2008-04-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

Training to be soldiers
Fight for our land
Once in our life
Two years of our time

Have you ever wondered
Why must we serve
Because we love our land
And we want it to be free to be free. YA.

Stand up
Be on your guard
Come on everybody
Do your part

[` Lincoln]
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Intense brain washing session in NS. ahahah. HI EVERYONE. i'm back after such a long long long break. as you all would realise, army has no computer access. for all the recruits like me @ least. :D. It was nice of jankin to send me off along wid my ever supportive family! Tekong BMTC1 Jaguar Coy, Platoon 1 section 1 bed 04. my 4d number is 1104. so yes. pls buy it and share if strike ok? HAHAHA.

anyways army is v regimental, tiring, shag, but when u've got a very gd company, grp of commanders, gd platoon, gd section, gd bed buddy, gd ppl around. EVERYTHING IS GD. HAHAHA. fun la pls. wad u get when u put 200+ guys in one company for 15 days and being with each other for 24hrs? HAVOC. HAHAAH. i can still hear the "left 2 the left 2 the left right, JAGUAR! left right, PLATOON 1! left right, YAN DAO!" HAHAHAHAHA. shiok sia.

bmtc aint as bad as it is always told. it is surprisingly the most fun part of the whole of the army days. but i'm out of course alr. cause my back is giving me a major headache ARH. :(. i will definitely miss jaguar coy. esp my platoon tt is the best in the best company. and my section which is bound to win the best section award. AHAHAHA. cause why? got me marh. :P. kidding.

seriously, i think tekong is a very beautiful island. though shrouded with ghost stories. no one has encountered any yet. however. i think i may have. but am too tired to b even bothered. i got frigging 7 hours to slp for nxt day's activities. any ghost can jus go fuck off. seriously. i rather slp and rest than be sleepy and get fucked deep deep by my sergeants and sirs the next day. but they've been v welfare. but they got to realise we need our break too. our lvl is dropping every single day. so was our morale and all.

firstly, cause masturbation is illegal, u got 200+ despo guys with 2 rolls of toilet paper to last 15 days. 2nd, no girls around, that kinda helps, even the canteen auntie is hot. HAHA. 3rd everyday's training is like so tedious. no one has enough slp. and seriously, guys are dumb when we go NS. i saw the change. HAHAHA. i couldnt even do simple math @ day 4. WTH? my brain is going through athropy. i swear i better bring sumthing to do before my brain rots.

booking in tml again. WHY SO SIAN. :(. ahahahaha! but i miss my section alr. take care everyone. hope to see u all around soon:) sms or call me during 9.30pm to 10.20pm, if not i confirm slp alr. THATS WHY I AM FIRST TO WAKE UP. AHHAAH. :)

L

2008-04-09T07:17:00.000-07:00

[ ` Lincoln]
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Through the perilous waters
And the thickets
Trekking through the mud
Fighting with pride
Going to the army.

[` Lincoln]
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AHHH PPL. IT'S THE TIME!!! AIYA. ARMY TML. OMGOMGOMGOMG. hhahahaah. so exciting pls. but it's also quite sian to noe my freedom is going to disappear. oh well. a new journey, a new chapter of my life. GONNA BE A MAN. :).

a very big thank you to sy for pei-ing me on my last day as a civilian. LOL. spent the day kboxing and den going over to army market to clear the last few items to bring. SIGH MAN. HAHAHAAH. botak soon also. ahhh. need to sayang my hair now. :P. kiddin la. it sucks now, and i'm dying to be botak! damn it. lols. i gotta rmb to get a new cap! aiming alr. :D. i better get a new keyboard n mouse soon too. sighs. the old ones are gettign a little faulty and dirty.

OKAY. finally. i want everyone to take care okay! be safe! work hard! strive through everyday with every breath! :). and if any shit happens (applies greatly to me as a big reminder), IF life throws u lemons, make lemonade. and wen the going gets tough, the tough gets going. HAHA. may all of you be without hate, anger, suffering. may all of you always be happy:). see ya'll in 2 wks time!

a short metta prayer for everyone:

sabbe satta. avero hotu. abbyapjjho hotu. anigha hotu. sukhi attanam. parimharantu.

sadhu sadhu sadhu.

L

2008-04-06T17:38:00.000-07:00

[ ` Lincoln]
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In life there's always a point in time
When someone has to choose between two path ahead of them
When you walk down one
You will never walk down the other
There's no certainty where each will lead to
To the left is a dense dark forest
To the right is winding never ending one
Choose wisely and not regret.

[` Lincoln]
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hey people. man. overdued blog entry again. sian 1/2. ahahaha. i left 3 days more plus to get to NS. wthhhhh. coolness rite? LOL. beginning of my army term and the end of my civilian one. oh well, the government paying us to keep fit. so wad the hell man! let's go for it. LOL.

so i've been spending loads of time catching up wid ppl cause I will soon not be able to. LOL. multiple visits to jankin n nic's houses. met up wid clique, evon, jing, syl, nic, ys for dinner @ pasta tt day. den went to watch Shutter. it's a far cry from the thai version, but still the story would b quite nice if u watched it for the first time. the thai version is enuff to make u sleepless and worry everytime u got a neck ache. LOL.

den fri met up wid carol, thanks so much for the sweets! ahahaha. den sat was a day out wid jan, nic, carol and nat, we changed so many places to eat la. wah biang. champion. den ended up in billy bombers. MAN I TELL U. the honey stung chicken is damn gd. trust me. i was wow-ed. LOL. actually the grp of us met up wid denise n her bf b4 our meal. jus 4got to mention=X.

den we all ran under the rain to go paradiz to play pool. sigh man. i damn lousy alr. ahahaha. but it was fun to hang out here n dere luh! :). den evening jiu go to my other house @ telok kurau since the tenant there invited us over for dinner. so we hung out all the way till late den meiyen drived us back!

den i was alr so tired, den i still helped xuan wid her pw PI. wah biang 1.25 den off com try go slp. woke up @ 5 plus go shao mu. tt one champion alr. tell u ar. dozing off on the way there man. ahaha. but the shao mu every year is nt bad. everyone is v tuan jie. :)! everyone has a part to play n catch up. i jus enjoyed every moment la. den in the early morn, the cemetery is v quiet n peaceful. misty misty though. LOL.
den went nic house to play cabalsea. den went out wid mum to settle the internet things @ cp. den later went out wid zhi hao for lunch. den came home n jan came my housie for dinner. LOL.

today will b going wid samantha for lunch, nan de, she coming from penang for sum scholarship thing @ SPH, tml will b wid fiona. wednesday i suppose... it's family time. LOL. I GOTTA GATHER ALL MY DAMN STUFF FOR NS. ARGH. :D! oh wells.

To tekong soon! stay tuned for my complains on the coming few entries!!!
:)

L

2008-03-26T06:52:00.001-07:00

[` Lincoln]
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Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there.

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyone.damn sorray the post came later than a week. ahaha. been really busy. but one big thing to say first. 13 DAYS to tekong. AHHH. AHAA! :D. man. and reminder to all jc pupils that appli day for uni courses end on 1st apr. be sure to appli soon. :).

yeps. first a big thank you to aunt barb, dr lee, ms ng, for taking your time to write my referral letters for me. thank you to sis for editing. thank you to mum for printing and showing a lot of concern. thank you to dad who was always there to drive me around and encourage me. ahahah!

yes, Sir Lionell had a grp meeting again!!!! ahahaha. :). beams. we're like the only group having this on-going grp meetings. HAH. where's the otha grps that were so enthu @ first man. tskk. ahahaha. but i tink not bad la, we could all almost come together. :). den we watched step up 2!!! whoots. nice man. lols. den had dinner @ sum jap restaurant @ cathay. WAH. a very different format of getting ur food. like take a cup and put all da ice cream sticks wid the name of ur food into it, ur drinks too! wow man. tell u sia, new exp.

den we all hung around and talked for damn long pls. den decided to walk to orchard from cathay to eat swensens. i was like damn it. LOL. it was alr like 11pm when we reached swensens and the queue was terrible. ahaha. so we decided to go home from there. had a great time catching up wid everyone. :). ahaha.

den also went to MDC on monday, den also cleared my portfolio stuff. den write the finalised letter for apple, collected da monay from the CD sales from daniel, thanks dude for meeting. den also went to jankin's house on tues. den also went to shiwah's birthday partayyy. ahahah. i tink the dog in her house is really really cute, oni it stank v badly cause they didnt wash it for like a week. wtf? HAHAHA. but it was fun playing wid the dog of course. the cake was nice. :).

did i alr mention i met up wid mich n rox? ahahah. if not, yes, we met up for dinner! long time since primary sch! ahahaha. :). it was nice to see them again. i also met up wid calven, jankin, deb, yvonne, suyi for dinner @ chomp chomp, den we saw our junior, Ju-On, HAHAHA, kay kay, it's crystal. mmm. it was damn fun to talk to suyi calven n jankin LA, all dirty talk oni pls. ahahaha. it was heartwarming to see everyone still being able to clique together, it's rare. prolly cause i missed ms neo's house outing. DAngs. but i went for a wedding dinner, so wad the hell man! worth. ahaha :).

i spent the whole of ytd reformatting my damn com. now it's layout is so pretty! :). yay. i love my com. and i still cant play cabalsea. ARGHHH. someone help pls. ahahahaha. 13 days left of civilian life.

Da streets.

L

2008-03-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

cousin cheong han's wedding dinner
beautiful clouds
beautiful clouds
evening sun

terminal 3, crystal jade shanghai.
terminal 3!
punggol beach
punggol beach
Skytrain
Sweetness. Found tt stone @ punggol beach

[` Lincoln]
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All I could do
Is look at your smiling face
Facing back at me
From the screen.

As Plato said
Humans were previously so powerful
And made up of two parts
Conjoined together.
Male and Female.

Then one day god split them up
As they were too strong
Hence forming males and females
Hence it's a quest to find for their own
Other half.

I feel you are my other half
But we are separated
By such a huge distance

When I see your smile
I smile with you
A kind of warmth
Never felt before
A kind of comfort.

Pity
Reality still sets in
I don't know you.

[` Lincoln]
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hey wassup everyone!! ahaha. back to blogging aft such a long week again :D! hehs. highlights are like i went out for a whole day with my parents back on sunday. nice nice sweet family time. :D. went punggol park with them and enjoyed the seaside breeze:)!

den also went out wid jankin and suyi! whole da affair again sia. went to nyjc in the morn to collect my portfolio stuff. den later went to meet jankin n suyi for movies! LEAP years!! :). bought the ticks @ plaza's golden village, den we went for a short meal. called for the wrong dessert. damn it. LOL. mmmm. i wanted a banana split LEH. kaos. in the end i called simi rainbow ice kachang. sian 1/2. ahahaha. den we saw Katie there too, dangs man, the world is so small.

Leap years is quite nice, singapore kinda feel, but a little unrealistic @ times. but overall quite a nice show to watch! wong li lin is damn pretty. ahaha. mmmm. den aft the movies, it was pouring like crazy! den we made our way down to bishan to meet cm and syl for dinner. evon n jing pang seh!!!! HAHAHA. evon cause sick, jing cause tired. biangs. :D. but we went to eat crazy ang moh anyhow. :). gotta apologize to syl for pangsehing. sorry man.

den suyi n jankin cabbed down wid me to sengkang. ended up we sat @ SKCC and talk talk talk. tell u sia, i was so tired i started stoning. LOL. but their jokes they cracked were really leng xiao hua. HAHAHA. den we chatted till 11.30pm plus den jankin walked home, while i and suyi walked another way home. wah nice weather pls, so cooling. the weather is nice, but the rain is really pissing my clothes off. LOL. it's always damp. i love jogging in the rain though.

den another day met up wid rena, mum and sis for dinner @ terminal 3! rena treated all of us to crystal jade. MAN. nice!!! :). thanks rena! ahahaha, my guarantor sia, mai siao siao!! ahahaha :)! mmm. also a big thanks to jensen! for bringing me n sis out for a nice meal @ ichiban sushi!!! :). owe u one.

den ytd went for kai zhao fa shi's dharma talk. damn gd! as usual. aahaha. den also today went for NUS open house. sat for like 7 hours to hear all the faculties. FAINT N DIE TELL U. ahahah felt like JC again. thanks to nic for pei-ing me! :). ahahaha. lols! den went off @ around 5 plus! den went for cheong han's wedding dinner!!!

the bride was like damn pretty la! cheong han also looked damn shuai. ahahaha! :). den i tink doing hosp attachments help. i developed tis like sense of responsibility to help and b nice to my ah mah and relatives. :). i begin to appreciate my grand mother's existence! :). beams. den jus came home nt long ago! ahahah. i shall blog more regularly man. if not posts are damn long.

nxt wk! wed, go meet ms ng! hahaha. and prolly dr lee. to discuss my entry stuff to med sch. AHH. 24 DAYS TO ARMY PLS! excited but also nervous. HAHAHA.

Words can't bring you down.

L

2008-03-08T16:11:00.001-08:00

[` Lincoln]
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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I need you there
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie its made up on your side.

When you walk
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you.

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do, reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left that lied on my floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do.
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hey everyones! one week is again over. :). sigh man! time really flies, but i bet it'll slow down when i'm in da army. ahaha. :D! mmmm. anyways i had quite a fruitful week @ NUH. =]. oh yes from the pics above, i've cut my hair real short now, then, some nice modified car, den dad n i visited the area around simei, tt was were i was in kindergarten and the rest are R n A cases of x rays.

anyways NUH was a bit mundane in the start, it's cause i didnt understand anything they said. i was in a totally new department! rhuematology n arthritis. i dont understood wad they meant by osteoarthritis or rheumatoid arthritis or lupeus or SLE or anything! HAHAH. so i was basically screwed on the first day. :D. but second day i came early n read ALL the damn brochures they had and i got a rough idea and everything became clearer. :).

so clinicals and ward rounds and it kept rotating. it was very different from CDC's attachment. NUH is so so much busier, moreover their ward rounds took forever. cause the cases must be examined more closely since most of the RnA symptoms are about the same or they could b an overlap. tsk. ahaha. mmmm. lols. but it was different in the sense that we had many many wards to go, in various dept summore, like cardio or neuro. it broadened my perspective. :).

i had clinicals with not only a/prof koh but also nigel's uncle, tee joo, dr aisha, dr manjuri! ahaha. yes but the turning pt of the whole attachment was wednesday night where i did a 1/2 night call! ahahaha! followed a house officer around, dr hu huixin. she was very kind and showed me all the things and explained to me how to be a house officer and wad is expected of all the doctors everyday.

den night call is super exciting but also VERY tiring. ahahah.i can still rmb the first case. we had to insert a plug into an elderly lady den send her for a CT scan when she's on sedative, cause she kept moving about. so we took quite a while to pacify her. ahaha. den the ct scan was perfect. she was very frail. and had many haematoma, prolly cause the skin of the elderly is v brittle.

den i also witnessed like joint synovial fluid removal and also injection. wah, damn cool man. ahahaha.

den my attachment ended on fri morning cause i had to go for the collection of my A level results. ahaha. man, tell u sia. damn uncertain, always thought will screw up because of like weird reasons. doubts just arise. ahahaha. :D. anyways den later dad brought me out for lunch n all. man. :). thanks dad. lols. mum also gave a lot of encouragement over sms. sis too. thank you to everyone! :]. hehs.

i was actually disappointed when my name wasnt on top! no 3 As, 4 or 5 or 6! ARGH. :(. ahahaha. but when i got back my results, ms ng said, "don't worry lincoln, you did fine". den knn, i got 4 As LA. HAHAHA. heng sia. but anyhow~ i got AAB for my H2s, PHYSICS, WHYYYYYY. :(. ahahaha. but i tink i gave up physics to brush up the rest. and yes ppl, economics, the subj tt i hated the most, got a freaking A even though i studied for like 2 hours for 2 days for it, jus memorising the notes. LOL. damn lucky! :). so overall 4As 2Bs. the level of competition is really high damn it. worried now if i could still got medicine.

later part on thurs, i met wid carolyn n jankin, HAPPY birthday carol. ahahah. owed her 35 bucks for her present, so in the end paid her 15 in cash, treatd her billy bombers and still owes her 5 bucks. man. aahaha. aft dinner we three walked from cathay to suntec!! :). den we ate @ crystal jade restaurant. :D, XIAO LONG BAOOOOO. AHAHAH. nice nice :).

aights! so monday got events, tues morn got breakfast wid anna after my damn swim, wed onwards no idea man. oh yaaa, big thanks to jankin's mum and also ah yong and also dr lee! and janson! and all the MDC ppl, you'll have been great and encouraging. the day of enlistment is drawing closer! :). I still wan a deferment damn it.

Sun behind the woeful clouds
Smile behind the painful tears.

L

2008-02-28T22:29:00.000-08:00

Thanks to sy for the haircut
morning drive.

[` Lincoln]
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Should have seen it coming
When the roses died
Should've seen the end of summer
In your eyes

Only fools are know-it-alls
And i played that fool for you.
There're nights that I died for you.
Baby.

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heys everyone! back to blog again. lalala. CDC attachment ended. so this wk was spent catching up on R and R! :D mon, wed, fri, swimming. tues jogging. thurs was out back @ cdc to help out and have a lunch treat from dr lee! ahahah. it was a nice meal @ boon tong kee, should go eat their chicken, nice. :D. lols

swimming is great! but also draining. the weather have been quite nice to me and hasnt been like scorching hot. ahahah. oh yes happy birthday to siying and also xiao min! :D. all old alr huh. bwahahahahaha. =X. nxt bd soon is carolyn luh. ahaha.

ytd was like damn hectic. cdc had like this meeting where the NUS students come n offer proposals n help for PCC. den i attended luh. had lunch with them. they're v approchable n nice. ahahah. oni when they started talking about their friends getting implants and asked around if they prfer small n soft or big n hard. HAHAHA. wtf man. damn funny la! got me thinking though. :P. best is definitely big n soft.=X

ytd also passed chu xuan my GC cause i have no use for it for these few yrs. and found my poor batteries LEAKED. AHHHH. ahahah E2 titanium Energizer LEH. expensive shit u knowww. lucky i din buy lithium. sighs. lols. anyways den went off to meet yuzhen for dinner cause she is like in the same boat as me. stuck @ home forever. lols. watch L change the world. AHHH. AHAHAHA. nice show man. i tink the actor who acted L is damn funny and surprisingly speak gd english for a jap! the story line is kinda twisted though from the manga.

today slept late cause mum bluffed me it was gonna rain. so i ended up going for the swim @ 10 plus. sis followed. sigh. ahaha. did 15 laps as usual. felt wonderful after swimming n den also went to makan @ ichiban rest. i love their salmon teriyaki. damn it. :). HAHAHA. thanks to sy for introing me to there. bahaha. A lvl results out nxt wk! AHHHH.

NUH nxt wk!
=)

L

2008-02-22T17:20:00.000-08:00

[` Lincoln]
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Please don't look
I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I have found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape.

I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Is so far down.

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Hello everyones! I am finally free from the attachment at CDC. Man. It was quite a day ytd. Morning I reached there and pass gina her present, for all her care n concern she had and taking the effort to bring me around wards and also to TTSH's library, gym and more. ahaha. =). since she's embarking on her music interest of guitar n keyboard, i got her a musical box. hoping it would spark more passion to strive in music.

Den i proceeded onto meet dr lee. =D. i got him a book on Karma. why? ahaha. because we met through the dharma affinity and the gift of the dharma excels all gifts as it brings about wisdom. =). ahaha. den he kindly brought me over to NUH to attend an ID meeting wid the other ID physicians. NUH is quite messy. HAHAHA. i mean the arrangement wise. but well, the chicken rice there is nt bad la. :D. tts wad i had for lunch. =D. we reviewed a few weird cases and had a very rapid n stimulating discussion. but as usual, i knew nothing much. HAHA.

On the way, Dr lee played so many jay chou songs over his cd player in the car. YEAH MAN. ahahaha so nice. den we started to discuss on music n all! PROLLY one day i should go kbox alone. i think it would be a very gd experience leh how. HAHA. :). den i also bombarded him wid a lot of qns abt S. Aureus. man. terrible bacteria. asked him about a case of endocardisis.

den when we reached back @ CDC, he let me try the paper for the M5 students. TELL U AR. damn SIAN. ahahaha. I DONT UNDSTD ANYTHING. HAHAHAHA. but he allowed me to go research on the answers. and i only got a frigging 5 / 20. wth? HAHAHAHA. but i scored better than the lowest M5! who got 4/20. bahaa. =). but i did research la, unfair. :(. i MISSED AH. AHHHHHH. wah biang, i tot go there do exam, but actually ward rounds! AHAHA dumb me.

so i sticked in the office wid gina all the way till the BBQ ppl arrived!! they all v nice ppl la. den the food was nt bad either. ONI I ATE 2 CHICKEN WINGS. :(. I WAN MOREEEEE. AHAHAHAH. den the satay NO CHICKEN. beef n mutton. den LAMB CHOP. WAH BIANG. champion alr la. now the world shortage of cows n sheeps cause we makan all of them up. HAHAHAHA. :D. chickens must be damn happy and frolicking around. :(. i wan! so ended up eating carbo after i performed two songs for the ppl, man i think i cant sing alr. HAHAHA. but they still were v nice and said i did nt bad. thank you! :).

den we stayed back. i met many many new ppl! a/prof albert teo, prof leo yee sin, amelia MSW, Eileen MSW, Hossan Bank rep for HIV prog, Ho Lai Peng Principal MSW and MANY more. ahahah. i feel suddenly my social circle expanded a lot ar.. but i didnt keep in contact wid them. prolly one day i shall pop by! XD.

anyways it was quite a sad news andrew had to go home so quickly. :(. he had an acute pain in his gut area and went home to rest. i enquired about his condition and it is said that he has cancer in his gut and also his immunity is falling terribly. days are numbered @ a few months to a yr. i tell u, i immediately sian 1/2. he is such a nice guy! MAN. how come nice ppl always die so young ar??! :(. i would definitely be there to visit him if he is hospitalised.

den cabbed home wid gina, who kindly asked the taxi to go to sengkang first. =). den later i bathe finish and used msn for a while, my parents asked me go airport to send one of my sis fren off to aussie. She was going perth to do medicine. ANOTHER DOC! x). ahaha. envy sia. =D. but i hope i make it into yong loo lin though! =).
i dreamt about my A lvl results. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. :(. HAHAHA I DONNO GD OR NT LEH.

ANOTHER DAY HAS GONE BY!

another step closer to death.
So why not let us live life purely
Fully
without remorse
Or
Regret.

L

2008-02-20T02:02:00.000-08:00

View @ chinese sinseh
Mummified after sinseh
At the sinseh!

[` Lincoln]
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Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water
Cause my lips have chapped and faded.

My sisters and brothers
Still I will not kiss you
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you.

Turn away
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause all my hair has abandoned my body
All my agony
Know that I will never marry

Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
I just hope you know

That if you say
Goodbye today
I'll ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you.

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Heloos everyone! =). ahahah. back again. sighs. when to the sinseh ytd. got bandaged like a mummy pls. lols! oh yes i have a new haircut! thanks to sy! :D. i did my own touch up after that though. scissors does wonders. but i swear a pro hair dresser would freak out and die. HAHAHA. LOL.

didnt do much today but sis popped by and we had a long lunch wid assist manager gina, her treat again. HAAHA i feel rather bad. :(. LOL. always leech on ppl's treats. dangs. :D. oh yea. last 2 days @ CDC. man. time really flies eh? :D. TML GOING NUS for sum talk!! hope it'll be interesting and fun. bahaha.

TIRED!!!

L

2008-02-17T05:02:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there are paths
We would love to take
But things just are not right for it
Perhaps
Things could be different

Might be different

But that is not the case right now.
But I'm thankful
We knew each other

BBBP.

[` Lincoln]
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heyhey everyone. DIIS! (damn it it's sunday) =) ahahaha~ anyways tis coming week is gonna be a sad one. LAST FINAL week in CDC. :(. i feel i have only been there for such a short while. i will certainly miss dr lee, gina, andrew, ah hock, bernard and all those who have made a difference, like nurse jeff and all! i have certainly learnt so much from you guys, i will definitely take MANY MANY pictures with you guys! =] WAIT FOR ME. wahaha.

nxt wk schedule (those i rmb) :

monday- lunch treat from dr lee, MDC at night, Lincoln giving the talk about forgiveness (WAHAHA)!
friday- BBQ @ CDC, final night @ CDC too, KIV (Crashing medical school's anatomy lectures)

BAHAHA. busy week. AND YES. FROM NXT WK ONWARDS. LINCOLN IS GOING TO RUN EVERY SINGLE SHIT DAY. ARMY COMING! AHHHHHHHHH. 14 pull ups become A PATHETIC 3. OMG. AHAHAHAH. i'm freaking out. damn it.

anyways had a long week!! but managed to meet up for sum movies! carolyn (as mentioned in last entry) : sweeney todd, den jus 2 days ago, wid vanessa, PS I love you. MAN that show was damn sad case can. wah biangs. faint n die. HAHAHA. dere's this guy sitting nxt to me and he was like ALONE and cried @ sum scenes, damn sad shit. but i think i were alone i would dare to cry too. DAMN EMO LA THE SHOW. AHAHAH but damn nice. it's about moving on.

den we went for late night dinner @ macs @ AMK hub. man i'm going to be fat n die. HAHA. den took 3 pictures which are like damn FUNNY. den we took a long walk den sent her home. took the damn 86. YES I Saw the damn chinese sinseh for my busted shoulder AND HE IS MAD. HAHAHA. he rubbed like no one's business. LOL. den put the bamboo cups @ the injured areas. den rubbed with his elbow and cracked my neck twice. i was like WOW each time.

den ytd morning went for breakfast DANA @ sum private house. the taxi driver got frigging lost and i was so frustrated due to the lack of slp. lol. ahahah. den we went to renci hospital for sum performance, i hoped they liked my performance wid jonathan! =). ahahaha. den we went to Firefly's dinner for the elderly and the volunteers!!

i, reb and xinqin were like in charge of the games LA pls. ahahaha fainted. LOL. damn lame and hard to play da games. AHHHHHH. :(. ahahaha!! but i still hope everyone had fun! bahaha. oh i saw sumone who looked like vanessa!! haaas.

anyways HECTIC WEEK AGAIN. ARMY SOONNNNNNNNNNNNNN. AHHHHHHHH.
NODAME ROCKS!! WATCH IT FOR ALL MUSIC LOVERS.

Quite a pity don't you think?

L

2008-02-13T21:45:00.000-08:00

How much blood must be spilled?

How much pain must be felt

For one to realise

To treasure

To cherish everything around

If only the world

Could revolve

Without pain

Agony

Anger

Hatred

[` Lincoln]

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hello everyone! gong xi fa cai and also happy valentine's dayy~! ahahah. =). this v day is special as i am planning to go for a movie alone!! omg rite. so cool rite. we'll see how, if the queues are too f up, den i'll be stuck @ home. ahahaha :D. anyways woke up with loads of weird dreams. slept on the floor last night, i swear the new flooring rocks, it's so cooling la! =]

anyway it was evon's bd ytd, so passed her the presents and went to nyjc! met weijing along the way. since they had their own company and friends, so i excused myself from being extra and a calefare and went to find for teachers. ALAS. reading period and assembly! HAHA. so i decided to call HODs, those excluded from such programmes. :D.

went to meet my second mum,MRS LIM CHOY FUNG! HAHAHA. HOD of math. whoots. =). she's tired as ever, but still as alert n funny! =). i had quite long chat wid her in the HOD office. bahaha. adrian was there too, bought kopi for cf, i think he is still sucking up to her. oh well. observation only la. =) CNY collection of angbao oni 300+. dangs. :(. ahahaha. but better than my no income work! :D @ least can sustain myself for a period of time. =)

Talked till quite late alr, den i popped by to the hall's piano and played my heart out mannnN! ahahaha. damn long never play alr and i think sum elephant leg spoilt the sustain peddle. dangs. but it worked nonetheless =). ahaha. pity i was in corporate attire, if not i would've badminton-ed. :D.

yes! and i learnt how to cook sweet n sour pork from the patient worker chef today. OMG DAMN NICE CAN. SIGH. I WAS SO SO SO HUNGRY N GREEDY. AHAHAHA. i demanded for my food. :P. KIDDING. i paid for it, but was the first to eat. =). hehs. damn nice and i alr got the recipe. prolly i'll go get the ingredients and try n cook one day for my parents. =). time flies man, better cook for them while i can.

anyways i'll off to alexandra hospital later i guess? shadowing dr lee. we'll see if we go, cause for now, it's alr 2. im tired. HAHAHA i wanna go home n slp though at home is so boring. :(. tts why i wanna go OUT AND MAKAN N WATCH MOVIE. AHHHH.. where is all my bachelor party members???????????????????????? LOLL. AHAHAHA.all mah bitches, all in NS or work. sigh. HAHA. :D.

or shuld i go basketball and save money? AIYA. ahahahahaha i dont know la. kaos. life's beginning to turn a little mundane, but hey, it's better than emoing at home everyday. i did some meditation in the morning ytd too!! =). ahahaha. bahaha. and i better see the damn chinese sinseh soon, my damn right shoulder hurts like crap. i dreamt i full fractured it leh. OMG LA. HAHAHA. :D. must've hurt.

oh wells. my follicitis is alr better! i think a few more applications of the cream and i'll be a clean back! AHAHA. :P. my cough is gone! jeez. AND I BETTER GET INTO DAMN SHAPE FOR NS. IF NT SUFFER. sighs. ahahaha. GYM ANYONE? :P.

I watched AzumI!! dAMn cool assassin show. =). SWEENEY TODD WAS DAMN NICE. Watched wid carolyn 2 days ago. hurray to her first m18 show. AHAHA.

I'm too tired to even feel sad anymore.

Maybe I've reached a stage of equinamity

You have your own life

And I have mine.

Thats not going to change.

2008-02-10T02:39:00.001-08:00

L and R. bro n sis @ Telok Kurau new house
Dad, sis, ah mah, mum and L
R and ah mah
Going to Xqrj

YS wid the jacket we bought him.

F 4
People present @ the surprise bd party for ys!

[` Lincoln]
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heys everyonessss.. wasssup ppl! long time since i blogged! so it's best i did. :D. anyways so much have happened la! Xin qing rong ji rocked! i loved the underground rock band. wah seh. the guitar shredding is godmode. hahaha. =). den caught up wid evon, jing, nic, ys for simple lunch @ CNY eve. Thai Express! ys got into sum run in, but i guess he did fine. =).

ytd was the most hectic day of the CNY wk. oh yes. b4 i forget, HAPPY CNY to everyone! ahahah =). my mum's ex colleagues came and visited us.den later i went to wilma and valery's house to bai nian, den i went to meet nic to buy pressie for ys, den met up wid evon n jing @ PS for the card. den we all went Fish n Co. to get a reservation for the dinner. den waited so long.

alvin came! den we talk talk talk. den cheng hong came. den hui chun came. we bought the freaking wrong pens to write. HAHAHA. dangs mann~ den later we went upstairs. den soon ys n ky joined us! ahahah. it was nice to surprise him! YS!! =) hope ur birthday went well aights!! we did all this for u. hope celebrating ur first time in a grp made ur birthday special!!

i and nic left hastily back home where my house was having this function! ahahaa. damn it man. we cleared the whole freaking steamboat wid jankin. den we all mahjong and black jacked our night away wid my sis and nic's sis. ahaha!! till 1.30am, den nic n his sis went down. i and jankin slpt @ my house's hall. HAHAHA. quite comfortable la. the floor cold cold one. v conducive to slp w/o aircon=).

den woke up quite late. 9 plus. den @ 2 pm, xinqin came over to bai nian! den we all mahjong again. den till 5 plus. den jan went home and i chiong warbook. HAHAHA. damn it la. i'm so tired now i'm jus writing wad happened. sighs! L IS TIRED. and SHALL BLOG ANOTHER DAY. =). HAHAHA. anyways MDC TML!! WHOOOOOOOO! =). PEACE OUT PPL.

You got me thinking again.

But hey, I'm still stable in my thoughts.

L

2008-01-30T05:42:00.000-08:00

My batch!=)
The skies can always be so beautiful. =)
HIV-2.
Oral thrush.
Universal CDC.
CDC Singapore!! =)

[` Lincoln]
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This life
Is full of endless sufferings
Endless pain
Endless lost

Humans are too attached
Too troubled
Too possessive
So we're hurt in the process

Everything is impermanent
Everything is bound to end one day
So why should we always cling?
Why should we always hold on so tightly?

If we can let go,
Attachments dont bound us and we're free from suffering.
If we're going to lose all the materials and money we gain one day
Why are we still fighting over it?
If you understand everyone, 100 years from now will die
Why do you remember hate and anger?
When they like us, will also die one day.

[` Lincoln]
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hey everyone!! =]! L is back! currently i'm still attached @ CDC. and i'm beginnign to enjoy every single day of it. mainly because i've been exposed so much and learnt so much! from all the interaction wid the patient workers @ patient care centre and also from the M5 ID lectures and the clinicals that i jus did ytd.

i realised doing medicine is not as easy, but it makes it as fulfilling as ever. being able to save lives is a sacred task handed to a minority. the sacrosanct task however is always belittled by many. during clinicals i also realised doctors put their lives on the line, just like the nurses, the team players, esp in the department of ID, infectious diseases. you run a risk of TB or anything any single day. sadhu to them!

i saw many things @ the wards ytd. including a dying patient. it's very sad to see people waste themselves away. the will to live is already extinguishing, all you could see were just skin and bones, a sunken face, a reeking smell of decay and a weak person. it is very sad but at the same time encouraging that all of us are going to be like that one day. sick, old, dying. so we should treasure everyone around us and live life to the fullest and also the best we can, making no hatred run in our blood or anger to fill our minds. so deep are the words of the Dharma and Buddha.

anyways i went with chuxuan for badminton trials ytd! i tink she managed to get in but due to her filming, she may nt go in luh. ahahaha. yi chang huan xi, yi chang kong indeed. =D. mmmm. i realised a lot of teachers have alr left NYJC. oh wells~ anyways i played like 5 hours of badminton! DAMN SHUANG. but currently on 8 precepts, so i was like a bit afraid about the energy content i have. sighs! =). but i did pull thru!! wuahaha!

today! i'm going for checkup @ Dr Lee's clinic, prolly due to me maybe having caught TB okay. HAHAHA. damn it! okay la. den i'm meeting my sis for lunch and we're going ward visiting! =). sadhu! i'm really need to get sumthing very nice for dr lee. =].

May all beings be free of all sufferings
May all beings be without anger and hate
May you, and me, be happy always.

L

2008-01-22T05:22:00.000-08:00

Anna and Lin. Before india trip!

4 I gathering

Shiwah and Lin. Job career expo.

[` L]
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I look around me
All I seem to see
Is people going nowhere
Expecting sympathy

Going through the motion
Of the scripted destiny, tell me
Where's our inspiration
If life won't wait
I guess it's up to me

I'm not going to waste another moment in this life
We won't come back
The world is calling out
Leave the past in the past
Gonna find the future
Misery loves company
Well so long
Miss me
When I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

Procrastination
Run in circles in my head
While you sit there contemplating
You'll wind up dead
While you're busy making your excuses
Another day, another casuality
But that won't happen to me.

Won't look back
Gonna take what's mine tonight
Cause every wasted day
Becomes a wasted chance
You're gonna wake up feeling sorry
Cause life won't wait.
I guess it's up to you.

Well so long!
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
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hellos everyone! back to blog again. man. though it's the hols. i'm busier than in sch. I miss sch loads now man. as in LOADS. :(. unhealthy lifestyle of the couch potatoes and slackers is terrible. all the weight i lost in india is going to waste. AHHHH :(. LOL. i'm going to run 10km!!! i dont care. HAHAHA. kiddin.

bahaha! anyway been out quite often! i went to a mahayana temple wid SBM members! go clean it up. wah tell u ar. xiong arh. knn. 3 hours plus. spent cleaning up the big concrete floor, the main entrance for the cars and all. it was tug life man. scrubbed scrubbed and felt like india. lack of water to wash floor la. everyone is underused or overused. LOL. damn suay kuan.

but the floor was clean (hurray), den it rained (waste effort), sorta like a testing of our patience and all. i tink the rain washed off the soap tt we missed out, so more like a blessing, lesser work to do. HAHAH. =). den we stoned. literally. but i made sum friends here n dere and learnt a lot by observing ppl and practising mindfulness. sadhu sadhu sadhu.

den we sat in the meeting room and waited for shifu to come in and he treated us to tea. =). he was very nice and offered us tea and all! =). beams. the tea was bitter but refreshing. den met so many FRIENDS. YAY. ahahaha. den we had to help clear up a chopped up mango tree!! STAINED MY CLOTHES!! sobs. cause got the sap. but it was fun to work wid ppl! and found tt cant judge ppl by looks alone. pity i couldnt stay wid them cause had to go a job career expo wid shiwah.

rushed home n rushed to city hall. den met up wid shiwah. we spent such a long time finding the damn expo thing and waited for the never coming shuttle bus. HAHAHA. so we decided to walk to suntec exhib hall.

den we had to fill in like this sign up form. den we realised it's for ppl who're lookin for jobs!! den i was like, OHHhhhhh~ crap, wasted trip. LOL. AHAHAH. cause i oni O lvl grad. siAN. A lvl results nt out yet. ahahaha. =D. mmm. nonetheless we still walked around n browsed. =). den took freebies n all. den got approached by so many job ppl. quite eye opening though, to see the whole job market.

den later we got nth much to do. so went for dinner @ New york! HAHAHA. vanessa's continual recommendation. so i decided i shuld try it once! ahaha. we cam whored like no one's business. and i still cannot bring myself to do a retarded face. HAHAHAH. man. dinner was nt bad. their fish tasted different. oh well. X). den we went home! sent her back cause it's quite late.

den the nxt day was like whole body ache la! but it was worth the work! merits merits. ahahaha. den went to find a cake @ city hall. AGAIN. HAHAHA. oh wells. OH YES. I WENT CNY SHOPPING WID NIC. AHAHAHAH. gd buys, but no clothes yet. all shoes. MAN. =(. okok. back to topic. found a cake for the celeb for my sis n xinqin bd. it was a meaningful session, kai cher shared about the mangala sutta. interesting. =). but there is this man who sorta ruined everything. reminded me of ahems. but i guess ppl with higher intellect act tt way. so i learnt to b humble.

he who says the most, knows naught
he who says the least, knows it all.

so i shall leave it as that. =). life is alr full of suffering. i must practice the cleansing of speech and thought. if the way i am doing is right, etena sacca vajjena, may all beings be happy and without hate n anger.

today was filled wid reno work. but it is interesting though. =). dr lee got me an attachment alr. i prefer doing clinical work though. will ask him again.

Namo tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Sambuddhsa.

Salution of the fully enlightened and Exalted one.

L

2008-01-16T19:12:00.001-08:00

I think you could do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see.
The edge of the bed
Where your night gown used to be..

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
How it feels like beside you..

[` L]
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heys everyones! back to blog again! :).. My guard dog duties are placed to the minimum alr. ahahah. cause the JOB IS FINISHING. WUAHAHA. :). lols. damn happy. so i made my way down to nyjc ytd!

collected my GPA and saw one of the ex j2 nyjcian was workin as an admin there. :D. familiar faces here and dere. :). mrs huang is still as eccentric as ever, mrs lim still as funny as ever, ms ng still as you mo and blur as usual, mr ng how wee still as nice as ever, mr neo still as truthful as ever, ms poh still as smily as ever, ms sim still as chattable as ever, mr sim still as helpful and stringent as ever:).

i first met up wid ms ng, den had like half an hour of chat. den she had to go for reading prog. HAHAHA. sounds so distant. :). den when i was about to go down, i saw ms sim. so we chatted. for like 4 hours. HAHAHA. madness, i donno why we could talk so long also. :P. mr neo came to join us for a moment, den later mr ng how wee brought water for us! so damn nice pls. :).

den i went to jan's house and play n play n play! HAHAHAHA. till v late. lf 2.5 sehhh. LOL. ahahaha. den took to lrt home. biang eh. tired. den went home exercise a bit den went to slp. thanks mum for the nice noodles n curry puff!! :).

will b meeting evon tonight for sum dinner den tml going to visit ky @ her relief teaching sch! events are like coming out so quick! omg. hahaha. so exciting! peace out pppl

The tibetian book of Living and Dying.

L

2008-01-14T18:01:00.000-08:00

FIVE years ago, we were once a couple. And now, really best friends:)

Tonight
It's only you and me.
The miles just keep rolling
as the people wave to say hello.

I've heard this life is overrated
But i heard
It gets better as it goes.

I'm here without you baby.
But you're still on my lonely mind
I still dream about you all the time.

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard
But it won't take away my love

When the last one falls
When it's said and done
It gets hard
But it won't take away my love.

[` L// 2008]
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heys everyone!! Wow. life is really taking an upturn!! :) mua dear sister is going thru a tough period of time. but i think she's getting better alr! :D.

went out wid siying for dinner!! X) beams. well! we were once together. she's the girl at the pic luh! tt's us hanging out @ punngol park aft dinner! ahahah.. it was such a slipshot thing. decided the day b4 to jus meet up. den i realised, it was the first time havin dinner wid her (after she reminded me). HAHAHA. we met @ cp, den moved to hougang mall there, ichiban sushi. first time in a sushi bar la me. deprived is the word. HAHA!

waited forever for the food, so we mad jokes about the commandos trying to kill the salmon i ordered by breaking the neck but it took so long. so pronounced them noobs. HAHAHA. oh well, we had a really great dinner and all. my treat of course. i felt very bad that i didnt do all those listed above when we were together. so i have to compensate. sorry k sy, we were too young and i was too immature.

had a long walk ~~ walk walk walkkkkk~ talk talk talk. den reached punggol park! by tt time it was alr like 8 plus in the evening. :). den we walked and talk den did pull ups and all. HAHAHA. den finally sat down @ a pavillion. wah biang. lizards were abundant, ants were overwhelming, mosquitoes and sandflies were comparible to india. HAHAHA. but it was fun to sit and listen music together, joke around and see the punngol park pond. :D. sy's "que yang" sounds v alike yang chen ling. whoots. claps claps. den cam whored!

we chatted all the way till 10 plus den made our way back to hougang mall cause her house is there and i have to take the mrt. thanks for the massage sy! lol, i fell on my right shoulder while doing a hand stand. terrible bruise. ahahah. den sent her home den took a walk den went home. it made me wonder a lot. ahahah. all these things could've been done long time ago. well, people change and people grow up and regret stuff. but i'm glad it was an evening well spent. dinner rocked, caught up wid old friends, wow. it is really enriching. her bf now better treat her well man. she's really really a good gf.

den things went even better.

nic had a farewell party on sunday. poor him :(. had to go NS. but had a great time cheering him up and playing WORMS on his handfone. HAHAHAHAHA. old man sucks pls nic. my team rocks. :D. ahahaha. mmm. den the Oath taking WAS A JOKE. AHAHAHAHAHAHA. "I, nric no., full name' and everyone had a diff nric and name. LOL. all say together damn funny. den the mothers, as usual are so worried abt their boys. so asked many qns. sum quite lame. LOL. =x. but the outing, though askin many ppl, oni 7 turned up. lol. nt bad i guess? pool, guitar freaks, drum mania, rock fever, basketball, lunch. LOL.

poor nic. now @ tekong. but till fri night oni LA. easy shit LA. if i go in. wah biang 2 weeks. ahahah. but school 2 looks relatively new and nice. i hope sch 1 is too :(. sch 2's toilet conditions is terrible. BUT IT'S NEWER THAN SCH 1. so does that mean............... SCHOOL 1 TOILET SUCKS?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH. go n see den know bah. all squat one. knn. jus like india. but the food was nt bad la.

den aft tt i went to bring venerable Kai zhao to army market and also kinokuniya @ orchard. ahaha. i tell u. when u help the sangha. everything will go smoothly. FOR SURE. come on. one guy jus offered to buy a train ticket for us when we didnt have the coins to. OMG LA. stranger. :D. but thanks a lot dude. ahahah. we found almost everything we needed. and i bought a black singlet and grey army one. for jus 10 bucks. damn cheap pls. wth. ahahaha.

den dad fetched us down to MDC. den venerable kai zhao gave a very gd meditation and dharma speech. everyone was naturally impressed. Annumodame. sadhu sadhu sadhu. everyone had the fate to listen to a gd dharma teacher. so naturally their fates ripened. rejoice. :)! poor xl, cried so much cause of work stress. pats. cheer up ok? :). everyday will be better. may you be free of all suffering, anger, pain, hatred and may you always be happy. sadhu sadhu sadhu. but everyone @ the end of the day enjoyed the talk A LOT. :D! even jankin was impressed. omg la. hard to do tt. and no one bothered although OVERTIME by 45 MINS. HAHAHA. :). sadhu sadhu sadhu.

den the doctors brought us to some "light" dinner as they called it. AROUND 8 COURSE WHERE GOT LIGHT. wah biang. in the end i and jankin were the dustbins. HAHAHA. :D. poor us right. LOL. mmm. but dinner was great! even got free tickets to make it to the passage through time wid xl! :). had a very light hearted and fun talk on the way back wid jankin, the Med1 student and one of the doctors n his wife.

lincoln needs to go run! or all the weight he lost will go to waste! HAHAHAHA. and just for thoughts, fisherman friends could be used to cure constipation. LAXATIVE effect with excessive amounts. HAHAHAHAHA. omg man. i tried. -nt tt i got constipation- but jus cause my throat hurts. LOL. works wonders pls.

Metta Bhavana.

Thank you for making me feel so special. even though it was for an evening.

L

2008-01-10T04:21:00.000-08:00

The sun light shone through the curtained windows
In the shadows
I'm hiding.
When the time comes
And darkness engulfs us once more
No one still noticed.

I reached and still couldn't reach your hands.
Helpless and lonely
But stronger each day
Even as I go
I just hope to see you
Perhaps, even just for one more glance.

[` L// 08]
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hey everyone!! ahahah. i waited for like a few days, but reply-less, so it's time for a new post. :). lol. i guess a no-reply means i am doing the right thing.

MDC was great! xinling made it too!! ahaha. thats great. anyway jankin joined me for SBM and also MDC. i hope they didnt give him a wrong impression abt buddhism, lols. everyday is the dharma. ahaha. :D. mmm. but we had a fun time toking abt sum ppl in MDC and SBM. we found a second Sylvia!! HAHAHA. damn hyped too!!

MDC outing= to Xin Qin Rong Ji!!! chinese song writing competition organised by NUS and more accurately King Edward VII hostel peeps! so interested ppl pls approach me and go. tickets are @ 12 bucks and venue @ NUS's cultural centre thing. 3rd feb. :). ahahaha. i go there kope nice chords:D. YAYNESS. :).

congrats to carol for getting a new laptop! =.= i also wan. ahahah my damn com is down. so i using sum lao pok laptop. but it's uncrashable. :D. HAHAHA. powerful man. facebook, i deleted jankin's mogul to start on a Automator. murder MANN. whooo. :D. ahahah. i miss everyone leh. but everything is in adult fare. and many guys are alr going NS. LOL chi meng. jia you bro.

oh yes, played basketball wid chimeng, syl, nic, clar, joey. ahahaha. v fun. jing missed it cause she needed to slp! HAHAHA. was supposed to go shoppin wid her but oh well she couldnt make it cause her partner was upset. sigh! LOL. nvm, other days. corporate attire stuff. and i'm the only one available tts why. HAHAHA.

aights. house is under reno and i was damn pissed by the way i was treated @ home. so ranted a little to my mum. ahahaha. den in the end, everyone treated me well today. HEHS. shuang hor. :). lols. but was still the guard dog and maid. lols. shit job, but sumone's gotta do it! HAHAHA. :D. oh yes we had a meeting on the india trip! really great to see everyone! :) beams. jankin went to see see too. ahaha.

trixie popped by my house to learn chun zai on the piano. ahahah. oh wells. learnt fast i guess!!

nic's farewell party on sunday! interested pls come. ahahaha.

In the end.

It's still hard to let go. But I'll do my best.

L

2008-01-02T17:23:00.000-08:00

Probably I will find a sky of my own.
Beatrice. BK. Rebecca. Lincoln. Unknown indian dude.

[` L/08]
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If you could see my heart
Every single fiber
Resonates for the single you
Every particle of me
Has you in me.

But every chance I had
I rather watch you from afar
Cause this thing we had
Has already lost its meaning
Lost its scent.

A little sad
But it's alright
Maybe one day
Someone will take over your place
Probably
Hopefully

Someone better
Someone who shows
And someone who wants
Me.

You have moved along
Slowly I shall follow in suit
We would lead different lives
Both moving in a different direction.

Though we made efforts to make this last
Trudged through those hard times
Most of the sacrifices were mine.
There are times that you did your part too.
And i thank you.

So this may be a goodbye
You may not see it anyhow
Just so you know
You're always hung on my mind
Though I am not on yours.

But soon
We would just be flickers on each other's minds.
You have your own path
I am finding mine.
I guess I was too held down by us.

Things could've been different
But there's not point lamenting
I think we're happier and better off
Standing apart
And being just happy for each other.
It's too painful to just see you
And realize I'm not anywhere in your list.

Probably I'll find my name on someone else's top list.
Someone who would make an effort and go all out.
Some silly person who would save all the messages
They receive from me
Like i did for yours.

Some silly person who would smile
When reading those past messages
And sigh at how wonderful times were
Like I did for yours.

Some silly person who would go all out
And make ends meet
When things clash and appointments meet
Like I did for you.

So i guess it's goodbye and thank you.
I'm letting go of you.
After holding on for more than a year.
06 to 07 and again to 08.
This was one of the longest I ever fought for.
A losing battle it was.

Good luck in your life and path.
Friends we still are.
But just normal as you wanted it to be.
Mega metta.

[` L//08]
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hey everyone! i'm blogging at last. ahaha. :). firstly! wishing all my friends and family, a very big Happy new year, though it was really 3 days ago. :D. nonetheless a little late greeting wouldn't hurt would it. :D.

I have already come back from india.Well, it's a really gd eye opener, i have never expected that the income disparity would be so massive. and from here i've found my life path. And I hope I can follow through it smoothly. :). I shant talk about india and nepal so much as it's 16 days and you know how long one of my entries could be. ahahaha. but overall it's growth spiritually and mentally. AND PHYSICALLY, i lost 3 inches off my damn pants size. But i got food poisoning, cough, fever. LOL? but i'm better now, cough n flu oni. the air there sucks.

anyhow, hung out wid jan and nic the moment i returned to civilisation. I miss everyone so much. :). especially my dear computer. i love you. ahahaha!! 8 preceptors have no use for entertainment, prolly i'll keep 8 precepts every sunday or saturday. damn interesting. :D.

went to cut hair wid jan, echouse standard is like dropping. man. tsk. hair's like crap now. anyway will go for another cut later at Okinawa. havent tried it yet, hope it's gonna be great. ahaha. den the two shao ye from m'sia is coming back down, wondering if i shuld go meet up wid them. :D. but on the other freaking hand, my bus n mrt fare is adult fare. WTH, damn ex pls. i better go work soon, it's becoming a pain in the ass to see the value drop so quick. sigh, i feel old.

ytd i went geylang (NO, dont think so far). lorong 29, to see Reverend Kai zhao to offer dhana. it was nice to see some Firefly mission ppl there. and kai zhao was very nice and i tink i gotta brush up on my speaking and respect, i treat everyone too equally. LOL. after tt i went with my sister to see a doctor, while i'm the sicker one. paradoxical. AHAHA. spent whole afternoon watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S!

oh yes, on the plane back i went to went 3 movies on board! I pronounce you Chuck and Larry, The Simpsons and Evan Almighty. nice man. den heard some damn nice albums from Avril and U2 on board. Jet airways is nice. India's airport efficiency sucks. delayed an hour flight to singapore. delayed an hour plus for landing. thanks. ahahahaha. well a test of patience. sadhu sadhu sadhu.

plans: go MDC nxt monday to find for attachments, Hang out prolly with the shao yes today, cut hair at Okinawa, plan outings with people i have yet to catch up with and wants to catch up wid me, learn new songs on my guitar and piano. Basketball on the 8th (gonna be a good show).

This world is just too cumbersome for me.
Detachment.

I'm going to find my own sky.

[` L//08]

2007-12-11T23:51:00.001-08:00

[L]

A picture speaks a thousand words:).

3 posts of pictures. so a novel is it? =X. HAHA.

Leaving in 2 days time. minusing today.

Things come once in a lifetime. So cherish it.

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2007-12-11T23:46:00.001-08:00

Then and now. :) Sir Lionell forever.

2007-12-05T19:02:00.001-08:00

PROM PICTURES.

2007-12-01T17:51:00.000-08:00

The streets are too crowded
With people with too many secrets
Where have everyone gone?
Where have you gone.

Walking along the cold stone pavements
All i can feel
Is the caress of the cold biting wind
The soft touch of the rippling fabric.

Hands in my pockets
I continue walking down this lonely road
The dark clouds crowd in the once blue skies
And the eminent threat of rain draws near.

Where was the once beautiful pathway
Filled with lush greenery
With you and me
Just sitting side by side
And placing the rest of the world aside.

Now that you've left
All that is left in my view
Is this beaten path
With withering flowers
And dying trees.

Somewhere
Somehow
I silently pray
Though we're already on our own ways
That you might find a new story
Perhaps much better than ours.

Perhaps
You could still remember me
Then.

[` †Lincoln™]
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heylo everyone:]. BACK AT LAST to blog another long week or many days. LOL. i'm actually blogging lesser and lesser. I guess life's been really busy lately. For everyone I guess? :D.

Summary: Went to 0619's chalet, a failed ice skating trip, jankin visiting mua house, badminton wid ocip clique, dinner wid family, visiting the poh chng temple or sorta to helping wid packin n briefing, watching qiu tian de tong hua, waiting for d gray man manga and anime, PROM shopping, dinner wid family.

0619's chalet is very different. everyone's 18 alr. so there was a huge supply of alcohol. ranging from tiger beer to mild alcohol (4.5% to 5%) all the way to vodka of (45%). we tried to start bbqing but it was raining so badly. ahahaha. we managed to start a fire though. and i learnt this new term. many ppl stand around and use their "eye power" HAHAHAHAHAAH. to start the fire. THANKS MAN. JOKE LA. LOLLL.

but the cooking went really slow though everyone was helping out in a way or another. the weather was being very pissy and was like turning on and off the tap every now and then. so the brollies were open and closed so many times! i tink i oni ate like 1 crab stick and 2 sausages. cannot tahan alr. i went out to eat wid dexter, alvin and novi. LOL. den we bought like vodka 45%.

one dude sorta kuai lan wid me. wtf man. ask him simple qn, "do you have a bottle opener" he say they use their teeth. chee bye attitude. i handed him the bottle. HAHAHAHA. den he was so shocked den he say, " er, you found the wrong guy, just kidding, we dont have opener" LOL. joker. brain raped, bitch.

anyway we found out the AEP ppl were having the chalet at the same place and same day! ahahaha. so met up wid kaiying, andre, cheng, xian min they all at their chalet, at block C, ours at block F. :). ahaha. mmmm. shall post all the fotos later! :D. den also saw javin, den the SUPERSTARS were having chalet there too. wth man. so coincidental??

den went up to play stupid card games wid alvin, dexter n novi. wah lau. first round drink the vodka alr. madness pls. it burns ur mouth like mad. ahahaha. mmmm. but it is damn strong. i drank the minumum number of cups amongst them. madness la. i drank like 6 cups alr. they all i bet more than 10. and yes. i'm sober, the rest all drunk. =.=

den went down and gave ky to try the 45%, den we all went back to the bbq pit where 0619 took 2 pits now=.=. ahaha. den dexter n clarence they all all drunk alr. pour choc on our chicken wings and alcohol to the charcoal? WTF man. ahahaha. damn funny:)! ask them walk in straight line and pose, wad the hell man, macham catwalk. ahahaha!!!!! den i left wid dre at 10 plus. :D. carolyn talked wid me all the way home. yays.

den nxt day was badminton wid val and wilma. wah. played till damn tired. den saw my badminton coach (girls team one la) and also my badminton junior. biangs. he improve so much. now play wid him got a lot of kick leh. damn it. :). ahahaha. proud of him. den ate @ hougang mall. so nice la. the new food court!

den heard from nic, dexter got punched by drunk guy at the chalet and clarence was so drnk his mee siam was spinning and novi yelled from the chalet down to the bbq pit " YONG CAI, I'M NOT FREAKING DRUNK", zhiyi was like "BLOCK F, F FOR FU*K" and the neighbours were like, "the nxt door class siao alr". HAHAHAHA.

den ytd went to the temple to help out pack for the india trip. den wah GOT THE TEMPLE CAT. SO DAMN CUTE LA........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah biang. if can bring home i confirm bring home. so cute and guai. sit there let me pat and sayang only. :). beams. den still walk around me and snuggle. :D.

den went to fetch my sis den we all ate as a family. nt a bad dinner! :).

Qiu tian de tong hua is so typical drama, but i love it. >< style="font-style: italic;">Everything was forsaken i guess.

†Lincoln™

2007-11-29T16:55:00.000-08:00

2007-11-24T22:26:00.000-08:00

[` †Lincoln™]
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I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died,
We'll be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try.

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?

And all the things that you never told me
And all the smiles that are ever. ever.

Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms
She dies
She dies

And all the wounds that are ever going to scar me
For all the ghosts that are never going to catch me...

[` †Lincoln™]
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heys everyone. v long never blog alr. life is taking a slow drive alr. tts quite jia lat. i alr miss my mugging days. those were days wid more aim and drive. now is abt discipline though. working out to lose the weight i gained during As. knn. fat shit. HAHAHA.

AHHHHHHHH which sch shuld i go and teach ?! LOL. tts one thing i am still pondering over. man. nxt yr start, my cash flow drops like mad pls. ahahaha. adult fare. damn it. LOL why do i not have a younger sis or bro? den can spare me their eZlink card. :(. HAHAHA. LOL. cheapskate seh........

oh wells! anyway the above pics are outing wid ys they all for BADMINTONNNNN.. WHOOTSSSSSSS. SO DAMN FUN PLS. but now ended up wid an aching butt and right thigh. wtf mannnn. LOL.. but it was worth it. that day was super rewarding. played quite hiong. but 2 hours , 3, den bo lat alr.... ahahaha. damn weak LA. DAMN IT....

went LAN wid part of the 0619 guys. damn it, i'm not suitable to be a LAN gamer. 3 hours and i wanted to puke. -partially i tink it is due to the helicopter and fighter jet we were manuvering and kept capsizing in mid air-. ahahahaha!! but CS was fun. :). OWNAGE.

CAMPFIRE WAS GREAT! :). nice catching up wid everione there and it's very different to be a guest den i tink?? :D. it was damn damn fun k. ahahahah. den shiyu sabo. need to perform. WAH LAU. NEVER EVEN PRACTICE LEH. so many wrong here n dere.. HOW HOW HOW. :(. xia suay. PEISI say i gain weight. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. WOE IS ME..... lol!!!. but it was nice to see everyone:)..

BADMINTONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN NXTTTTTTTTTTTTT THURS:) 2 TO 4 AGAIN. wuahahahaha HEALTHY LIFESTYLE! and yes. i have yet to tink abt my prom shopping. LOL.

WARBOOKING N 2 PLAY ROCKS...

It's already been one year since LTC.

Everyone has changed.

Including us.

†Lincoln™

2007-11-17T16:56:00.000-08:00

The cold coffee leaves the coaster
And I'm holding back my feelings far away from my heart
I strive to get the grip back on the past
And you can always see it as always,
Clearly etched on my face.

The most beautiful thing wasn't the rainy day
But the leaves that we took shelter under
From the rain.

The images of our memories
As I'm am sitting on this swing
Start to turn bitter.

You told me to gradually let go of love, of you
Then you walked further away
Why did everything change
But that time has already been missed.

You use your fingertip
To stop me from saying goodbye
I imagine you by my side
Before completely losing you

You asked me to let go of you
Then perhaps,
You will walk further in life
And it was just fate
That would let us meet

Only let us love each other
Even if it was just for this season of autumn
I only discovered after they drift down
These fragments of happiness
How do you expect me to pick them up?

Tell me where could a rainbow be
Could you please return me my hopes and dreams?
Why is the sky so quiet
And everything sad is coming to my side.

Maybe the world is a cure for my pain
But at the same time it is a poison i'm drinking
When i can't see your smile, I can't sleep
I can see your silhouette near me but why can't I reach it

Without a reason
I can still walk alone
If you want to leave
I know it is really simple
You said dependency
Is holding us down

Even if you want to let go
Can you please don't deny my love?
Leave it for me
To think and hold on about it
Till I'm old and tired.

[` Lin// Bu neng shuo de mi mi cum cai hong]
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hey ppl! OFFICIAL ANNOUCEMENT. :). A LEVELS is down to the last damn paper. 3 weeks of examinations actually just flew past and everything just seemed to move in such an accelerated pace. man. time flies. soon i'm gone to india, relief teaching, den army, den uni. ahahaha. thats kinda scary. to me i'm still stuck as sumone younger than 18 i guess? XD

all the papers seem alright i guess. the only thing and advice for my friends and juniors taking the As or soon. Please keep an open mind when doing ur papers. i think it helps a lot, as when your mind is open, you can afford to see broadly and den the questions are really very ULU pandan can? HAHAHA. so just be prepared always for a hard paper. :).

the 24th is coming soon. do you remember?

anyway, nxt wk's programme: tuesday- campfire with interact and LIFE4B ppl! wed- basketball with 0619! thurs- FREE. fri- Badminton with clique. Sat- free bah? Sun- free. Book me while stocks last. LOLLLLL. AHAHAHAHAHA. :P. please be quick.

Help Lincoln lose weight he gained during A levels regime has already started ytd. basketball with clar bear and nic and this j1 dude. DAMN FUN LA. AHAHAHAH. i love playing HORSE. damn funny game. u see ppl do stupid things and you need to follow when they go in. LOL. ahahaha. joker man. but i think i am super unfit now. last time can play 7 hours of basketball non stop. ytd 3 hours, need stop in between. and after tt, my ass invited the chair like there's no more seats available tml. damn it. HAHAHA. I NEED TO GET FIT........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEACE OUT PPL. physics paper 1 left. after that, i'm going to make nice nice stuff for my tuition teachers and subject teachers. den show them my appreciation. i think i didn't regret coming to NYJC. i'm in love with the sch culture. Family like man. whoots. :).

We gave up all the goodness in exchange for peace.

Was it worthwhile?

L

2007-11-08T16:36:00.000-08:00

Tokyo drift. DAmn nice car.
Can u spot a pink dragonfly? :)
cat on top a carpark rooftop.

[` Lin]
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It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in the cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you

I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time.

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal

I've got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I dont know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie.

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child

Everytime I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

[` Lin// Boys like girls-hero/heroine]
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Heys everyones. sorry for the damn long break. busy mugging and also slacking N was lazy to even blog. ahahah. Okay. so currently i have sorta finished half the A levels and left wid a hellweek next week. MAN. dead man. ahahaha. 4 papers. FAINTS AND DIES.

so far gp was weird, physics was i think i donno, very uncertain? chem was okay, a few mistakes here n dere. math paper 1 , the last 3 qns are the deciding factor of an A as paper 2 was relatively averaged. mmm. but it's kinda sad tt we won't do gp and math anymore. ahahaha. i'm still itching to do the TYS for math, but it's alr over. :(. ahahaha. a paradox in the human mind.

well! let bygones be bygones i guess? :). ahahaha. mmmm. oh yes. anime lovers please watch D-gray man. damn nice. Hellsing is not bad too. :D. hehs. it's a D gray man marathon after my As man. 20th coming soon man. :D. HAPPINESS PLS. ahahaha. but now it is hell. :(. Oh yea! thanks to pui kheng! it was fun to mug wid u and ur frens at woodlands library. DAMN BIG LEH. amk library also nt so big la pls. faints n dies.

TUITION soon! :D. anyway BIG thanks to trixie for accompanying me to dinner! :) hehs. wad luck, i met wee kiat and also ling xuan on the way to dinner. and i was wearing NCHS pe shirt. MAN. AHAHAH. it felt good to be back in the school of hardknocks man. i miss badminton loads:(. tough training, mad playing, but it's a new competition every single day. i still rmb had to be consistent to surpass rivals. MAN. badminton anyone? :D.

JAMMING SESSION UP SOON TOO! man! oh ya, jing is coming wid us. hehs! XD. Kbox session wid celine and LIFE 4b! den ice skating wid Life 4b and also xue mei! ahahah. MAN. life is so going to rock after As. i will stare at the skies all day! oh ya. got tuition wid carol too.

aight! TILL THE END OF As PEEPS. PEACE OUT.

Cause I renounce all of that status when I'm attached.

L

2007-10-31T19:08:00.000-07:00

The conclusion is the best cosplayers come from Japan and are ladies. HAHA.

[`LiN2o13]
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2007-10-31T00:18:00.000-07:00

[` LiN2o13]
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Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes a hold
Don't leave me here so cold
Never want to be so cold

Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I've waited all this time
I've wasted so much time

Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone

I'm falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be.

Can you hear me
Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can i ever go back

You were my source of strength
I've traded everything
That I love for this one thing
Stranded in the offering

Dont leave me here like this
Can't you hear me scream from the abyss
Now I wish for you my desire
Don't leave me alone cause I can barely see at all.

[` LiN2o13// Skillet// Falling the the black]
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3 papers down for A levels. 8 more to go. math paper 1 on fri. HAHAHA. siao liao. ytd was physics. and i think i feel very dumb. HAHAHAHA. I WAN METHOD MARKS. and i think i did like very bad for my calculations! :(. save me. HAHAHA. but since it's over. i shall bang on paper 2 and 1 den. FIGHT ON FIGHT ON! RARS. ahahah.

today was GP. again, since it was the last english paper i will ever touch, i did my best and gave it my all. the result that comes back, i think i wont regret. It's just like O levels, another weird style of writing, another crazy way of expressing. HAHAHA. SUICIDE TOPIC. AGAIN. ahahaha. i think i am mad. my vocab in compre sucks, i tink if can get 3, i will treat everyone to like ice cream man. LOL. but too bad we wont get it back. HEHS. :X.

the topic i did on was: "Can the belief of the supernatural be sustained in this modern world?"

OMFG LA. HAHAHAHA. but it was the simplest topic i saw, (minus those like very common questions, you must write sumthing most ppl dont, den again, it's the biggest risk, either v gd or sucks like shit. HAHAHA) well, humans are alive because of risk taking. :). Comprehension, i don't know if i grasped the basics of the compre well for my AQ. A LEVEL IS ONE BIG FREAKING QUESTION MARK LA. KNN. AHAHAHAHA. all so uncertain one. madness pls. if i repeat A levels how ar. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. damn it man.

I am thinking of writing out my compo once more for Ms Ng to mark. AIYA. DONNO LA. AHAHAHAHA. 20 days to the end of A levels ppl. 20. :). HAHAHAHAHAHA MADNESS. I think i will like just die of joy at the end of the exams and just go home and slp AND THE NEXT DAY IS LIBERATION DAY MAN. I think i will just dedicate one day for just slacking. JUST LIE ON MY BED AND STARE AT THE SKY. HAHAHAHAHA. TT'S WHAT i told my mum when she asked me wad i was going to do after As.

Boos. meanwhile, exams first. oh ya. signed up for chem extra lessons! i think it is more productive than Lincoln staying at home and try to study. i tink i will take a break till 5 today. den start on math. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! EXCITING SHIT. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Our distance disappeared in my dreams.

I dreamt of us.

L

2007-10-27T17:34:00.000-07:00

Me and my new nerdy army specs. Jeez. still getting used to it though.
I love this kinda ear cuffs.
I have no idea how i got these scratches. I woke up likkdat
And again
And again.

[`LiN2o13]
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When I see you smile,
Tears run down my face I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.

And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.
I will never let you fall
I will stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven,
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

Cause you're my true love
My whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cause's I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
please tell me you will stay.

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray.

[`LiN2o13// Your guardian angel// Red jumpsuit apparatus]
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AHHH! HEYY EVERYONE. i gotta make this snappy. jeez. my breakfast is ready and my parents are bugging me. TSK. ahahah:). mmmm. the week is nothing short of hectic!! X).

Thanks celine for all those math questions! Made me study when i was like watching anime. MAN NARUto is nice leh! :X. And stop giving me prob and PnC questions! IT IS SO HARD. AHAHAHA, man better hang out wid Frequency after As. MUST. Ice skating right. :) And yes, we havent played basketball B4! MAN. MUST TOO.

Thanks carolyn for ying chouing me wid all the late night talks! ahahah. long time since we seen each other man. all the way from nan chiau! HAHAHA. we'll get back at LF for not inviting us! dont worry. :P. ahahah. Enjoyed your garage sale? XD

Thanks to vanessa for all the encouragement for all these times i'm feeling so stressed. MAN thanks k! dont worry, you so clever, sure can score straight As one luh! AHAHA. see you sumday in AMK library. Prolly i will join the Mr Looh chem extra class:) HEH. SO SEE YOU FOR 4 MORE LESSONS. HAHAHA. SEE YOU AT VJ AFTER As. :P.

Thanks to cherie, for bringing me to the Youth group hideout at ruby lane. though it was like a bit weird at first, i think everyone was being damn nice and all. looking forward to hanging out wid you ppl after my As man!! JEEZ. ahahaha :). The videos they watched were damn lame pls. Faints man.

Sorry to peisi! i was already asleep last night. Eh my teaching application APPROVED MAN. WHOO HOOOOO. AHAHAHA. monay monay here i come:). HAHAHA. man, but i got a lot of ppl to treat. :(. HAHAHA. wonder which sch i should go man.

Chem tuition has alr ended. SO DAMN FAST PLS. :(. aahaha. i miss everyone alr. MATH nxt week is the last lesson, den cannot see that teacher who could tell jokes with a straight face. HE DID THAT AGAIN MAN YTD. AAHAHAHAHAHAHA. joker. damn funny one la he. one of my fave teachers. :). Amazing that 2 years just flew by like this. SIGH man!! XD and to think i was only j1 last yr. JC life is nothing short of amazing and breathtaking. It's a route that I don't regret taking, though there are ups and downs, the experience was worth while. :). Many thanks to those who walked into and out of my life! You all certainly made a big difference!:)

Oh yes. ppl pls pls pls add me on facebook. i only got 8 friends. HAHAHAHA. but 8 damn gd friends that is. :). but more luh! Oh yes for da guys, there's this game called Warbook there, it's sorta like Ambar or Orkfia. nt bad. :). SUPERPOKES. :). HAHAHA. okies man. peace out. tuesday is PHYSICS PAPER 3. OMG. SO DAMN EXCITING I AM SO NERVOUS. AHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHA. life rocks suddenly!!!

Your Guardian Angel,

L

L

2007-10-20T22:53:00.000-07:00

I lie here paralytic inside this soul
Screaming for you till my throat is numb
I wanna break out
I need a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way.

The worst is the waiting
In this womb I am suffocating.
Feel your prescence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died.

Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow.

I lie here lifeless in this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause I'm ready to
I wanna break out
I found a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be that way
The worst is the waiting
In this womb I'm suffering.

[` REBIRTH]
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My tortoise is giving me a lot of trouble and panic. =.= it has this reddish organ thing dangling out. WHY SHIT HAPPENS ALWAYS WHEN I AM ALONE! HAHAHAHAAH. damn stressful. now it is frolicking in my damn sink, with its crap smeared all around. MAN.. WAD IS WRONG WID IT.. AHHAAHAH. XD. if it's the other tortoises that gave it trouble, they're so gonna die. LOL. tell u wad happen. the damn tortoise secreted white fluid when i bathe them in water, i was like, wad the fuck? ejaculation? HAHAHAHA.

but i thought otherwise, cause i picked it up and it had this red colour part of meat sticking out of it butt/ tail area. AND NO, IT'S NOT IT'S DAMN DICK. =.=, it's a freaking female. HAHAHAHA. DEN got so damn frantic. IT CRAPPED ALL OVER. damn it. it shuld enjoy seeing me suffer. HAHAHAHA. my parents are in frigging KL and my sis is at her hostel. great. Lincoln all alone again. To handle shit. HAHAHAHA. LITERALLY AND METAPHORICALLY. wad the hell!!!! maybe it's uterus dropped. MAN. hernia?! HAHAHA. wad the shit.

LIFE IS SO STRESSFUL. 8 DAYS TO As!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. AND HENG MY PARENTS COMING BACK TODAY. I AM SO GOING TO COMPLAIN TO THEM. I TOLD THEM I NT GOING TO CLEAN THE DAMN TORTOISES. BUT MUM SAID I MUST AND BEING A NICE PERSON I DID, AND THIS HAPPENED TO ME. WAD IS WRONG WID THE TORTOISE! WHY IS IT AGAINST ME.. HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i'm going mad. :D

THanks to NICHOLAS FOR COMING WID ME LATER TO THE VET. AND YES, SINGAPORE, please, HAVE MORE DAMN AQUATIC VETS CAN?! WAH BIANG. ALL TREAT DOGS, CATS, FEALINES! COME ONNNN HAVE A THOUGHT FOR OUR SHELL BOUND FRIENDS! DIDNT U WATCH NINJA TURTLES WHEN U'RE DAMN YOUNGER? WHO CAME OUT FIRST? TELL ME. NINJA TURTLE, OR UNDERDOG AND THE PUSS IN BOOTS IN SHREK. NINJA TURTLE RIGHT. COME ON. BE GRATEFUL AND TREAT THEM PLS. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA. i'm so frigging agitated. AND NO ONE IS LISTENING. :(.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

where are you. :(.

L

2007-10-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is waiting
Just waiting
To turn your tears into roses.

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning consuming fire.

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark.

You feel so lonely so ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

[` LiN2o13// Whispers in the dark, Skillet]

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Life is so lonely! Dad and mum's in KL and sissy aint coming home for the weekend. So ultimately i am alone. :(. HAHAHA. but oh well life still has to go on!
Thanks wilma and peisi for having dinner wid me ytd!! you guys rock. :)! ahahaha. oh ya, peisi, thank your dad for treating! :D.

tuition was tiring today! and damn draining. jeez. cause i sorta slept at 1.30 to 2 am this morn. AHAHA. naruto shipudden! it's a meaningful anime! :(. HAHAHA. XD. Man, i think they should like put more chairs in the front row for chem tuition man.. i've got banished to the second row today cause ppl KS my seat. KNN. HAHAHA. sucks man.

kelsey you rock man, intro me Skillet. they are damn gd pls! HAHAHA. next gonna hear Dragonforce since u said their skills are like WTF mode. ahahaha! :) peace out! rmb our date for bleaching of hair 2010! :) yea, rmb ur damn live performance too! XD, till u get back from states.

I WANT TO MAKE MY NERDY SPECS NOW.

TANG YONG SHUN, NICHOLAS LEE, ALVIN WONG. GO MAKE.

Whispers in the dark

L

2007-10-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But its empty.

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think?
I've got a piece of paper
But its empty.

It's empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We are empty.

And I even wonder
If we should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
but it's empty.

[` LiN2o13]
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heys everyone. Back again. first time i blogged so consistently. perhaps because today was such an EVENTFUL day man. ahahaha. MAN! Life is so empty. Such a paradox.

woke up like before my alarm clock rang, (which is before 6.19am). Looked forward for a new and good day! though having 3 papers for mock and so long to kill in the exams, and having only read through some shit. I SAT FOR THE DAMN PAPERS. HAHAHA! DAMN exciting pls. :). LOL. Okay basically the outline for today, Lincoln is an idiot. HAHAHAHA.

Firstly, math paper 1, i saw Alvin do so fast, nic do so fast. So i write faster. in the end alvin went toilet and looked as though he finished. I was like wth!!! i do so fast alr, den he faster than me!!?! i was like, MAN, this is unfair, ppl practice den do so fast!?!?! :(. (unfair to slackers like me). den i finished, wid around more than half an hour to spare. and i was still unable to believe it mannnnnnnn, how on earth could alvin do so quick. den he came back, marked his paper. den i found out, HE HAVENT FINISH. WAD THE HELL. HAHAHAHA.. idiot confirmation, case no. 1.

Den yue hao ytd today eat lunch wid Evon! damn happy luh. den went down to canteen as arranged, den. Placed bag down. den go toilet. den HOLAAA. unholy sight. tot the sight would disappear. went to buy food. the sight stuck smack right in front of my damn face. tot would disappear. hope hope hope hope hope hope. stuck. so went to join hong siang to eat instead, he looked so lonely. den we talked about army stuff, damn funny, all the gay stuff. the unholy sight never left. so in the end i left instead. fell sick. idiot confirmation, case no. 2. No lunch, dumped more than half my food to nic, no appetite.

den went library to seek refuge since sum person kope the piano in the hall. aircon blew my fever down somehow. and blasted slipknot music. damn it feels damn good. den hung out in there till break ended and time for our chemistry mock papers 1 and 2. 1 to 4. No joke. Xinling called to cancel dinner cause she's got mock tml, idiot confirmation case no. 3. however, she was so damn nice about it and cheered me up loads! thanks k! :) we go visit our sisters in NUS nxt wed! hope not another idiot confirmation case.

den chemistry came, sat alone behind, but felt v comforted when kelvin and 0618 plus jing sheng, kenneth, hong siang, yong cai, 0619, all come sit close to me. :). ahahaha. YOu guys made my day from shit to good! :D. you ppl rock pls. chemistry paPER 2 first!! banzai. kelvin DO SO FAST. (why am i sitting to fast ppl always) den he like was at page 5 when i was at page 3. i was like WTF! WHY am i so SLOW. den i CHIONG like there's not tml.. caught up.. den found out again. HE SKIPPED QUESTIONS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! idiots confirmation case no. 4 alr! same happened for paper 1. idiots confirmation case no. 5.

rushed home cause going kembangan wid mum. she in the end came home first. i rushed for nothing. idiots confirmation case no. 6. but at least ending of the day went well. talked wid bante for very long. PROUDS! beams. reached home 10.35pm man.. cause the journey was hella long.. 27 took forever to reach!!! tml going amk library AGAIN!:)

Only in my dreams would our distance disappear. That's why i love sleeping.

L

2007-10-16T01:56:00.000-07:00

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes.
Too long, too late.
Who was I to make you wait.

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
You know, You know.

That I love you
I have love you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me.

And you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.
On my knees
I'll ask.

Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know
you know.

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause i needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you

I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore.

Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing......

[` LiN2o13]
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Hey everyone:). Shashiburi! :D. it's like a terrible weather outside!!! MAN, i hope you guys are ALRIGHT AND WARM K! :) ahahah. i think slowly but surely, i am feeling my damn studies are finally on the uprise, "SO LONG EXPONENTIAL CURVE, I'M UP ON THE RISE NOW" HAHAHA! range: infinity. :P! i feel kinda good and clear, it's a wonderful feeling, you ppl JIA YOU! you'll reach there soon!:)

2 weeks to the BIG BIG BIG BIG A LEVELS!! MANN.. so damn freakin exciting.. :D.. soon 2007 is coming to a damn DAMN END.. WHOOO!! AHHAHA.. :).. anywayyyyss~~ CHIONG FINISH 2007 spectacularly!! So i can call it a damn damn good and meaningful year! :).. RELIEF TEACHER JOB COMING SOON!! WUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. 65 a day man.. wth!! :).. wads coming up more is INDIA TRIP! though i'll be missing Xmas.. :(.. dangggssssssssssssssss.. but will be celebrating wid XL after we return! :).

I BOUGHT PEN REFILLS AT DAMN LONG LAST!!! :D..

anyways nic woke up late so he pon physics today. SCREW HIM. HAHAHAHA.. damn it man.. :D.. anyway happy 16th birthday to Xuan! though you might not even see this, but still wishing you luh k? Zhe me shuo, duo cheng jing you duan lian qing. :). thanks for those times yep. Badminton rocks.

today studied wid Kaiying, cheng, ys! Quite productive.. the H1 math i tell u, really is Moral Booster. Those feel bad about ur math, please do specimen paper in ur orange TYS. HAHAHA. no insult to the h1 ppl kay, but it is tough as it tests fundamentals.. but overall it is very doable. :). den went for lunch, everyone had a fun time trying on my head set, cause apparently, i'm uber deaf wid it. HAHAHA. dangerous when crossin roads thoughhh~~

It's not that I'm tired of accommodating you. It's not that i've stopped caring or loving you or thrown you to one side. I still do care. It's just a simple reason of our difference in priorities. You place friends first, I place you first. That's the main cause of most of our ups n downs. It's not that i blame you, i blame myself. I don't know if it was meant to be or not, but it is both of us to show if it were. I've invested so so much, please invest too. Both sides must give and receive. If there's anything bothering, I'll still be here. I promised you before, I'll always be here, it just takes the initial step for you to find me. I always cared, always loved. Flaws are compromised at times too. You mean too much to me.

L

2007-10-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

Jump Smash.
Push.

[` LiN2o13]
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I tried to be perfect.
But nothing was worth it.
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me.
I meant all the things that I said.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That i'm trying to let you know
That i'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's crazy that nothing could save me.
But it's the only thing that I have.

I tried to be perfect
It just wasnt worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it will show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

[` LiN2o13]
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heys everyones! it's almost 2 weeks to the big As. :) i am getting a little worried at my studies progress. I think I will bar myself from my computer asap den start spending my time on my studies instead. Maybe 15 minutes a day. :). HAHA. i mean, a month of suffering= months and years of freedom of regret. I will not repeat the mistake I made during my PSLE. I will study and do my best. Study hard to all my friends out there! :D!

Today kicked started off as a very lazy day. Everyday seems like i'm waking up wid hangovers. I think i will sleep at like 9.30-10.30 everyday. I will wake up feeling more awake and wid less headaches! :D. Maintaining gd mental health is important for absorption of info from the notes!! :).. FIGHT ON mann!! mugmugmug!

Yulong woke up late today, so i had tuition at 10 instead of 9.30. And amazingly some people like evon can wake up so early to head to khatib. craziness. LOL. PHYSICS was so damn interesting, i don't regret taking it actually though it's a little abstract. IT RULES. i like AMK library a lot. Firstly, I feel good studying there, secondly, it's fun to snatch and run for places to study (keep fit summore), third, I can seem to concentrate there much better than anywhere else. And lastly, the study room at SKCC has closed down:(.. WTH.. sad shit.

School has officially ended, but still got mock papers and lectures on wed n fri nxt week. I miss my tutorials already and times when rushing to the canteen to get to "Soupy place" or the "Oishii" and "Noodle hut" stall on fridays. XD. Sigh. Well, everything has a start, climax and end. Nothing is permanent. Sadly, nothing is forever. Apparently Nothing.

Oh yes, all my fellow guy friends have started to get their NS enlistment letters, it's so fast! :). I think i am still young, but 18 already leh. Wah kao, so old. :(. HAHAHA. well, in the army, thats where boys become man. And wad my teacher said, "If you think the teachers are being unreasonable, guys, wait till you go to the army." HAHAHAHAHAAH. damn it man! Oh yes, i'm going into the army on the 10th of april 2008, prolly out sumwhere in 10th february 2010.

1 year 10 months. AHHH! I am in BMT school 1! :)! Anyone who is going the same please contact me! We need to start interacting! HAHA. Thus far, Hong guang, Justin, Derek( FROM CHOIR! LUCKILy not someone else.) If he is in the same day, same camp, MY BMT IS GONNA SUCK like a massive vacuum cleaner! Bastard, you touch every frigging girl you see, and with a stupid excuse. You know what, I dont give a fuck if you're a girl in a guy's body. FAG. Keep your hands to yourself. Even girls dont touch girls often.

Well, guess some people don't know their limits.

Anyways, forgetting about such a saga, people got their rights to make friends themselves, poor ys, poor alvin, poor me. Apparently his reason dont work wid guys but very well with GIRLS. LOL that sum screwed up shit.

Anyways, MUGGING MUGGING MUGGING TIMEEEE.. Man. Time is against us i guess. :). But we shant be troubled, but just move on. "JUST DO IT" indeed. meanwhile take care everyone!

Oh yes, by the way, goNNA BE A RELIEF TEACHER!!!! :) yays. HAHAHA.. And i played badminton today. HEATED.:)

Keep your hands away from my pals' girls, and every other girl. Sick.

L